His best friend

Chapter 20

It's fun knowing that someone really needs you. When someone needs you, you can tell. They look t you a certain way and you just know. Blake is giving me this look and I'm giving it right back at him. Me and home were just in his room watching movies on the floor. We made a very comfy little bed on the floor. There's so many pillows and blankets though I'm drowning in them. We were now watching "the ring". This was my least favourite movie ever! I really just hate it and Blake knew but he is trying to get me to get over it. It's hard though.

"Alyssa you can look now. That evil little girl is gone" he told me.

I poked my head out from under the blankets and she was still on the screen. I hid my face into Blake's arm and just held onto him.

"Sorry, she came back" he said and laughed.

"Can we turn it off" I asked him and held onto him tighter.

"Fine, but then I get to cuddle with you."

"Blake..your so weird."

"You love me for it" he said and kissed my cheek.

"Weirdo" I said.

"What was that?" He asked me.

"Nothing" I said

"I heard you say something"

"Nope, your going crazy"

"We'll alri-" he started tickling me and I didn't see it coming!

Damn him...that is always how he gets me. He tickled me so much and he knows all of my very very ticklish spots. The cons of dating your bestfriend. -__-

I rolled over on the floor so now he was on top of me.

"Hey" he said ad smiled.

"Ello, weirdo" I laughed.

"Look, we are both weird so it works out. Weirdo guy+ weirdo girl= best baby every!!"

We both started laughing so hard and we couldn't stop.

"I never want kids" I said

"Why" he asked and looked conserned.

"I can't over the fact that my kids will never be as awesome as my moms kids" I fake cried.

"Don't worry, if I'm the dad then we shouldn't have a problem with them being awesome" he said and smiled.

"OHMY GOD! What wi we name then!?!?" I asked

"Uh ok so first we will have a boy, his name will be rollo. The we will have a little girl and her name will be Bon-qui-qui." He told me.

We both started laughing so hard. We laughed for a good ten minutes.

"Oh god, I could get abbs from just laughing a lot." I told him

"I have them already!!" He screamed but laughed.

He randomly pulled his shirt up and showed me.

"You call that abbs?" I said and laughed

"It's better then yours!" He said pouting.

"See look" I pulled up my shirt and showed him.

"Oh you meant flabs, not abbs." He told me

"NO" I said

My shirt was still and and I didn't even notice that he took my shirt off. I ran beside his bed and sat there so he couldn't see me.

"That was uncalled for blake"

"But gummy bear, it's not my fault. You can't come into my room just wearing shorts and a tank top. You are pretty much telling me to do it." He said.

"I thought you had self control.."

"Not around you babe"

"You nasty person, give me my shirt back" I laughed.

"Nope"

"Please"

"No"

"Please"

"Nope"

"I will do anything."

"Anything" he smirked at me.

"Your not getting sex.."

"Please!!" He laughed.

I know he's joking but even the thought of that after what happened..just seems terrible. It reminds me of what actually happened. I wanted to cry now because of it. Ryan messed up everything!!

I kinda started crying a little. I didn't mean to but just thinking about that hurts me now. Knowing that my first time, was because I got raped.

Blake picked me up and sat me between his legs and I was facing him.

"Sorry, I was joking." He's aid and he looked guilty.

"Is alright, it's not your fault. It's just that I didn't even want it. I got forced to do it. And you were watching.."

"I didn't watch"

"Yes, you did. I saw you"

"I was looking at you. Into your eyes. I was trying to get you to not think about what he was doing and you just had to look at me."

I hugged him and then I noticed I was still not wearing a shirt. Whatever I don't even care right now.

"I love you, I won't let anything like that happen ever again. I promise" he kissed me and then he had onto me tighter.

"I love you too" I told him. We both fell asleep like that on the floor. We were drowning in blankets ad sleeping on the floor. This is something only me and Blake would ever do..