It's not me, It's you!

Fluffy

POV: Nyle

"14 years approx. or may be more..." Orange said making her hair in a ponytail, I wanted to laugh...

"haha stop joking, I'll go do the dishes" I said standing up from the couch

"Nyle, sit back down now" she said in a stern voice, I was confused but sat back

"I'm not joking, I thought I don't have to say this to you... but I couldn't do it, its only fair to be honest with you" she said looking straight ahead. I looked at her for a quite few minutes for any sign of funny smile or simply a smile on her face... but she looked like she's so determined about something, I've never seen her like this

"14 years? come on orange you didn't even knew me then!" I protested, there's no way she's telling truth. It was me who know her from the start because I hated her.. but there's no chance for her to know me right? She must obviously be joking

"No.. not 14 years, I told you may be more than that! You remember the first time you saw me.. when you and Phil ruined some photos of me and my brother..? That's when I saw you. I'm not gonna say that's when I started loving you, That's actually when you started attracting me!" she said smiling to herself. I'm the one who got mind struck right now... she continued

"You remember the Gust and Phil's party? When you started blabber something just to get rid of me...? You were too cute" she said smiling fondly again continued

"And again in the car? our first ever real conversation..? At least it was real for me... you have no idea how you made me feel by just simple features of yours. But at the same time I knew you hated me for some other reasons, the way you looked at me like you want me six feet under, your sharp and hurtful gestures when I came to sat with you on lunch, I thought you hated me for slapping your bestfriend my heart knew that it was not just a slap, something else. And the rest happened after that, the way you cared for me.. though I know it was just out of pity, I couldn't help thinking otherwise. Then you became close to me more than anyone, and now you're sitting right beside me telling me you love me... This all fell like dream. if it was a dream, I just want you to know that I never want to wake up again"

"I loved you the most way possible Nyle" she said finally turning to my side and raised her hands to my face

"Why?" I asked running hand through my face and added

"Why are you doing this to me?"

"I'm not gonna say something cliché Orange, 'cause we are not 17 or 18 years anymore. I'm 25 and you're 24, I guess at least I had matured to know that actions speaks louder than words. I'll show you how much you mean to me... and its not just one way! Now get up lets go to bed" I said getting up and taking her hand, not giving her a chance to protest or reply

We lied down on the bed, I was looking at the roof, my mind was wandering at the past thoughts. So the murmurs and red faces even her smiles and the way she talked to me all were just cute little gestures towards me to let me know how she felt about me... I fucking thought that those were all fake. What kind of stupid I am? if I'm to judge my self, I would've sentenced me to death for what I have done. That's how much of an asshole I've been.

'Do I really deserve her?'

'will I be enough for her?'

"Are you angry?" Orange asked lying sideways

"Aren't you asleep yet?" I asked turning to her side

"No, I really hate that I can't see your expressions. I wish I could see you just like how you can see me... Raw and fresh! So, can you please do me a favour and say what are you thinking?"