Bahlam Feeki

Chapter 71

Hours after that nightmare I was still attached to him, but despite the warmth of his sent that I missed so much I couldn't close my eyes.

I felt his eyes watching me as if he wanted to say something, but he kept quiet while occasionally rubbing my back.

"We found the flash drive containing the information by tomorrow we should have it unlocked." One of the guards said.

" Good, in the meantime I need eyes on all council members." He dismissed the guard and then brought his attention back to me.

" Habibti?" I hummed with my face still pressed into his chest. "Are you-do you want to talk...about it." I let out a soft sigh and lifted my face up.

" Is everyone okay?" I asked and he caressed the side of my face. " Yes, everyone is fine...but I need to know how you are this is the first time in hours that you have spoken." He said softly. I could feel him yearning for me to look at him so I did.

Immediately I bit my lip trying to refrain from tearing up again. " I jus- I don't know" he wrapped his hands around my waist and pulled me closer to him. " I feel a lot of things right now... A part of me is happy I'm alive and that the babies are ok and then another part I feel disgusted and annoyed that I didn't try harder to get him off of me... I-I still feel his fucking fingers on me Aahil!" I tried to keep it together but once again I managed to break down.

He gently wiped the tears that were streaming down my face and cradled my head while guiding me to his neck. " I'm sorry I left." He said with a voice full of remorse but he had no choice he had to go it was his duty.

" I-it's no-not your fault you needed to go." One thing that I hate the most about crying is how all of a sudden it just feels like you can't breathe to get words out properly but you have all the sustenance to cry. " no I needed to be here protecting you protecting my babies non of this should have happened."

"We aren't staying here tonight we will go to our home and I will have some of the soldiers I fought alongside stand watch." He hesitantly placed his hand on the side of my belly slowly caressing it. He called for some of the guards to escort us out of the palace just to be extra safe I pouted when I had to leave his lap but it wasn't safe to ride like that in a moving car.

But his hand stayed linked with mine trying to offer me some comfort. " I  will not be at the palace tomorrow but I expect the video equipment to be set up and ready by 2 no excuses." His voice was stone cold. Whatever they were going to talk about it wasn't going to be pretty.

He opened the car door for me and held his hand out for assistance. I looked passed him seeing some of the lights on in the house and gave him my hand hesitantly. " it's alright... they already searched the house and are now standing guard." He said softly as I exited the car. I nodded my head and he wrapped his arm around my waist.

It wasn't supposed to be like this... He was supposed to come home there would be a celebration maybe even a feast.. then we eventually move into the new place....happily setting things up instead it was this.

" Habibti?" He tapped the side of my hip drawing me out of my thoughts  I didn't realize we were in the bathroom. I hummed in response " I asked if you will be alright taking a shower Al-"

" no"  I interrupted he nodded and kissed my forehead. " okay let's get in then it's getting late."

I let the hot water run down my back as my head rested on his chest even if I had wanted to close my eyes I couldn't even if this was just a dream...a nightmare even at least he was here with me I don't want him to leave again. I let out a sigh and pulled away from his so we both can shower properly. His warm hand grazed my back while turning me around to rinse.