Bahlam Feeki

Chapter 78

I tried to regulate my breathing as the contractions go closer and closer as time went on the music was no longer helping the warm water was no longer helping even the soothing touch of my husband was no longer helping.

I felt Aahil wrap his arms around me as he began speaking in Arabic. I didn't have the strength to ask what he was saying or even try to translate. But the way how the words melodically rolled off his tongue, and the rumble that was in his chest when he hummed. I felt like I could finally breathe.

Nabila and Zuma sat in the room quietly praying, careful not to disturb the zen moment that I finally achieved. An overwhelming feeling of pressure caused me to grip his arm. This didn't alert him though it was me trying to move and get away from him that did. 

This wasn't contraction pressure this was I need to poop pressure I need to get out of this tub immediately.

" habibti what are you doing?" He asked in a worried tone. I swatted his hand away and tried to move but another contraction hit causing me to slip.  " shit." He cursed quickly grabbing me before I went under.

" no no no no." I frantically spewed.  Nabila jumped to her feet immediately rushing over. " what is it what's going on?"

" I need to get out now." I winced gripping the side of the tub. " pressure all I feel is pressure!" I whined

" sweetie that is your body telling you it's time to push you are all dilated list-"

" no no no it can't be I'm not ready." I tried to get up once more. But then I felt his thumb rub my shoulder while giving it a light squeeze.

I looked back and instantly broke down. " habibti." He cooed while turning me around " i-it hurts I don't w-want to do this anymore." Here I was crying like a baby into my husband's chest while I'm supposed to be pushing two out.

" I feel exposed, isn't this supposed to feel empowering?" I felt him sigh as he ran his hand down my back trying to soothe me.

" mother..Nabila.. can you both wait in the other room. I think it would be best if we get some privacy." I could feel the uncertainty in the air

" will do your king we will be right outside the door if you shall need us," Nabila said. They both shortly left after, it's not that I wanted them to leave I just can't explain this feeling.

" habibti look at me." He said in a comforting yet serious tone. I looked up and he instantly wiped my tears and then proceeded to cup both sides of my face. " you are the strongest woman I know you stand up to absolutely anyone not caring what their title or position is, you survived many situations you should have not been subjected to....but I know you can do this." I shook my head and gripped the tub feeling another contraction hit. Regardless of what I have been through nothing compares to this

" you've been in labor for 16 hours my love if you couldn't do it you would have yelled at me to call an ambulance and have them get the babies out, but here you are... it's just me and you in here if you have to scream do it if you feel the need to bite my arm do it you are not alone you have me here!" I looked up as the wave of pain dissipated.

Not a single emotion on his face showed uncertainty he really believed I could do this. My body was made to do this right? I'm healthy, they are healthy, Nabila coached him earlier on how to do things if she couldn't make it.... Everything is fine.

He moved closer to my face placing his forehead on mine and giving me a quick peck on the lips for reassurance. " on the next one push." I pulled away slightly and nodded my head and I did just that.

He pulled me closer and I placed my hands on his thighs I hope this doesn't be-

" fuck!" I listen to his counting as I bared down through the contraction  " 10 That's it! Good job habibti."