VILLAINESS [TWD]

𝖈𝖆𝖗𝖑'𝖘 𝖑𝖊𝖙𝖙𝖊𝖗

'ellie,

when you came into my life, i thought you were the best little sister i could ever ask for. then, judith came along. all i want is for her to grow up like you. to be strong and caring. to have her own mind and stick to her morals like you do.

you've been through so much. i never want you to go through more pain.

back at the prison, your grandfather and i were outside during the sickness. he wanted to do everything in his power to help you because you were sick. i knew that if something happened to him out there, you'd be more upset. so, i made him take me with him.

he was gathering plants to make tea. i was guarding him.

we saw two walkers. one was in a tree. it had been there for a long time. the other was caught in a bear trap.

i was going to shoot them. your grandfather told me not to. that i didn't have to.

when i was helping siddiq back, he told me a story about his mom. she thought that killing walkers freed the person's spirit. it made me think about hershel. how he kept your family and friends in the barn because he thought they could be cured. how he didn't let me shoot those walkers that day because they were peaceful.

i know that hershel always wanted what was best and safest for you. it's why he wanted us to leave the prison behind during the fight with the governor. how he talked my dad out of fighting. he did that to me, too. that's another thing we talked about that day.

you can only fight so much. surviving isn't the same as living.

you told me about hershel's lessons. that forgiveness takes more strength than holding a grudge.

you were right about me being weaker than i thought. when i attacked the sanctuary, i did it because i wanted it over. i wanted the easy way out. i didn't want to put the work in to make things better. i was being weak by doing that.

you're stronger than me. you don't have to fight. that's the easy way. that's the weak way.

find peace. gather your strength and be the bigger person in all this.

you don't need to fight. you want to. and that's even worse.