VILLAINESS [TWD]

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I hated digging a grave.

I hated packing supplies.

I hated being in a vehicle with Rick and Michonne.

I hated seeing their faces.

I hated sitting in the back of the van.

I hated hearing their voices.

I hated how my tears fell onto the letter.

I hated that I stopped crying.

I hated how my body ached.

I hated that I still had.. his.. blood on my face and arms.

I hated that knot in my throat.

I hated blinking.

I hated breathing.

Everything just.. hurt.

"Carl.. he.. he wrote a letfer to Negan," Michonne reveals.

My head snaps in her direction. Rick was driving and Michonne was in the passenger seat. Despite what jsut happened, Michonne was the first one to say his name so openly.

How dare she mention his along with Negan of all people?

Carl's words echo in my head. Negan should be kept alive?

"Pull over," my voice carries.

"What?" Michonne asks, turning in her seat.

Anger bubbles in my chest as we meet eyes.

I slam my hand against the back of Rick's seat. "Fucking, pull over!"

Rick sighs and stops the van.

I jerk the door and slide it open.

"Ellie," Michonne calls.

I pick up my bag and toss it around my shoulders. I take another bag of food as well.

"Ellie!" Mixhonne repeats.

I push ths door shut roughly- making it echo through the empty street.

Michonne's door opens and I pick up my pace. Then, Rick's door opens.

"Where are you going?" Michonne asks, chasing after me.

"You said you're going to those trash-people. I'm not gonna go suck up to someone that already betrayed us twice. I'm going home."

"Alexandria is empty. We can't-"

Michonne grabs my arm. I spin around and shove her off of me.

"I didn't say I was going to your home. I said I was going to my home," I spit. "Hilltop."

Michonne takes a deep breath in and out.

"After Glenn-"

I throw my head back and groan in annoyance. 

"I wouldn't let you be alone. And Rick wanted to help, but you wouldn't let him. Now, you wouldn't let us go through this with Carl alone-"

"No!" I cut her off. "I wouldn't let Carl be alone. I don't give a shit about Rick."

"Ellie-"

"You want to go lay up with the dude that caused him to get bit? Be my guest. But, don't make it seem like I am here or there to support him when I was there for Carl because Carl was there for me!"

"You're angry. You're hurting. I understand that. I'm hurting, too."

"Cool, then do me a favor?" I bow up to her. "Leave me the hell alone and don't get anyone else I care about killed, huh?"