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Y/n Y/l/n, a wanted killer with a big reward on his return to FEDRA previously caught by the fireflies is tasked with protecting Ellie.
this will have a Hbo tlou scenes changed to add an extra character! mostly Y/n's...
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Butterfly by BTS (Eng translation) (I adore this song.) ♪ Don't think of anything Don't say anything, not even a word Just give me a smile I still can't believe it All of this seems like a dream Don't try to disappear Is it true, is it true You, you You're so beautiful, that I'm scared Untrue, untrue You, you, you Will you stay by my side Will you promise me If I let go of your hand, you'll fly away and break I'm scared scared scared of that. Will you stop time If this moment passes As though it hadn't happened I'm scared scared scared I'll lose you ♪ (There will be some lyric usage, but cute. Song: J's lullaby by Delaney Bailey) -(J)-
I sat in the dimly lit room, attempting to fix my boots. It was difficult prying at the base of the boot, I gave up and tossed the tool on the table. The workshop door opened, Tommy walked through "The guys said I might find you here." I couldn't muster up a response to him, "Figured I'd save you the trouble." Tommy placed a new pair of Boots on the table, I looked at them in silence. "I shouldn't have said what I said. I don't even believe it. I know you're happy for me. It just- it's complicated for you... and I'm sorry. So you gonna let me off the hook or what?" He asked, "This ride to the university, is it a suicide mission?" I asked him, "No." He answered "It's dangerous, but it's nothing you can't handle. Just prepare and do what you do." "You've had people go that way and come back?" I continued my questioning. "All of 'em. What is this?" He asked me, "They're immune." I told him truthfully. "What?" "Ellie and Y/n. They got infected, but they didn't get sick." Tommy had a look of disbelief, "Tommy. Tommy, I saw them get bit myself. That was months ago. Months. They're immune." I repeated. Tommy silently sat down, "From the beginning." He told me. I took a breath before telling him, "It was Marlene. She hired us to smuggle them to some Fireflies. It went bad. Tess got bit. She made me swear to take them. It was her dyin' wish, what the hell was i supposed to do? We made it as far as KC, and then- you know, she saved my life there... from another kid. Five years ago I would have destroyed him. But she had to shoot him to save me. Fourteen years old. Because I was too slow and too fuckin' death to hear him comin'. And I saw... I saw a man kill his own brother... to save her, while I just watched. And today I thought that dog was gonna tear them apart because it smelled somethin' on them. And all I did was stand there. I couldn't... move. I couldn't think of anything to say. I just- I was so afraid." Tears pooled in my eyes, "You think I can still handle things, but... I'm not who I was. I'm weak. Lately there are these moments where the fear comes up outta nowhere, and... my heart... feels like it's stopped." I paused. "And I have dreams. Every night." "What kinda dreams?" Tommy asked, "I don't know. I can't remember. I just know that when I wake up... I've lost somethin'. I'm failin' in my sleep. That's all I do. It's all I've ever done is fail them again and again." I finished my explanation, "You want me to take em?" He asked "Im just gonna get em killed. I know it. I know it." I admitted, "I have to leave them." "Joel." Tommy said sternly, "I mean , it's why you took off on me, right? To make up for the things we did? Well, here's your chance to bring your kid into a better world. You're younger than me, you're still strong. You said it yourself, you'll come back. You have to take them." I pleaded "And you can't tell anyone, not even Maria. Tommy you're the only one I trust. If anyone else sees those bites on them, what's under their skin... they'll shoot em. It's the last thing I'll ever ask of you... I swear." The tears In my eyes fell down my face. "And what are you gonna tell Y/n? You'll break his heart, Joel. That man loves you. You end it now then what? What was it? A lie?" Tommy asked harshly, a heavy pang of guilt hit me. "I don't know..." I admitted. "Fuckin' hell Joel. Do you love him? Or are you lying to him?" "I do. I love him, Tommy." "Then you should prove it. I'll take em but it'll break their hearts. I can see it in the way he looks at you Joel, he would do anything for you. He looks at you like you're some sort of saint. I'm not letting you throw this away. Y/n would go all the way back to Boston if it meant you're happy. I can't let you throw that away." Tommy had a stern look, his eyebrows furrowed and eyes piercing like knifes. "What else am I supposed to do Tommy?" I asked him "He's protecting Ellie, they need each-other." "He also needs you. He needs you to make sure he eats or to reassure his doubts, to comfort him. Ellie's just a kid, she can't do all that for you." "I know. I know all of that. I've helped him through all of that. But now I need you to make sure they get to the Fireflies." My voice stern, Tommy sighed heavily "I'll take them out at dawn." He confirmed, we let the workshop. "We got you on 38. It's left, left, right." Tommy told me before walking away.
-(El)-
Me and Y/n sat on the large windowsill, he was telling me a story. "Oo I got another one!" He beamed, I pretended to read the diary I found "Tell me." "Ok, so. One time, some FEDRA guy I was out clearing infected with, saw some and pussied out leaving me to kill em all, there was probably about five. But I killed them and turned to him, he stupidly thanked me so i decided to tease him. I shoved him to the wall and went "You know what they do to agents who pussy out and can't handle infected?" He was terrified! And I was like "They put them in a deep pit of hungry clickers. A painful death." The look on his face was hilarious!-" "Joel's planning on leaving us." I blurted out, I couldn't hold it in anymore. "What?" Y/n seemed confused. "Joel asked Tommy to take us to the Fireflies. He's leaving us with Tommy." I explained, "No." The older man denied, "I had the same reaction. They were in the workshop." I said calmly. "Why would he do this?" Y/n questioned, "Dunno." I heard him scoff. "Christ." Y/n said, silence filled the room. I decided to continue with the diary.
"Ellie?" Joel's voice sounded behind the door after a few minutes, he opened the door and slowly let himself in. "Is this really all they had to worry about? Boys. Movies. Deciding which shirt goes with which skirt. It's bizarre." I said "Listen, uhm-" "Why are you here?" I cut him off, "I came here to talk you two." "No, Why are you still here? If you're gonna ditch us, ditch us." I kept my eyes on the book. "What exactly did you hear?" He asked me "I have to leave them. You have to take them." I told him "you know I stood up for you today because I thought-" I stopped myself. Looking back to my book and to Y/n, he sat there looking out the window, ignoring every sound as if he wasn't here. "I made this decision for your own good." Joel spoke up, me and Y/n scoffed. "You'll be way better off with Tommy. He knows the area better than I do-" "Do you give a shit about us or not?" I snapped, "Of course I do." He snapped back. "Then what are you so afraid of? I'm not her, you know?... Maria told me about Sarah and-" "Don't. Don't say another word." Joel cut me off. "W- We're sorry about your daughter, Joel. But we have lost people, too." "You have no idea what loss is." He said lowly. The words had made Y/n give up his act. "What?" Y/n said in a disgusted tone. "Everybody we have cared for has either died or left us. Everybody, FUCKING EXCEPT FOR YOU." My voice wavered "SO DONT TELL US THAT WE'D BE SAFER WITH SOMEBODY ELSE BECAUSE THE TRUTH IS WE WOULD JUST BE MORE SCARED." "You're right. You're not my daughter. And I sure as hell ain't your dad. Now, come dawn... we're going our separate ways." Joel said, going to leave, I couldn't let him, something bigger in me snapped "What about Y/n?" I asked him, my voice low. Joel stopped in his tracks "He's going with you." "I know, Joel. What about the two of you?" I asked again, "We-" he stopped himself, turning around. I could see the guilt swirling in his eyes. My heart stopped.
-(Y)-
"We'll see what happens." Joel said, moving his eyes to me, I got up and walked over to him, looking him straight in the eyes "Fuck you. You're such a fuckingliar. I'm going to bed, I'll be waiting." I pushed past Joel and walked to our bedroom, taking off my clothes and putting some pyjama pants on before getting into the cold bed. I laid there silently as stray tears ran down my face. Eventually Joel came in, silently getting in bed, facing away from me. I pulled him over to face me, turning the light out and pulling him into my chest, his arms immediately wrapped around me, holding me close. Soon his breaths were calm and he was deep asleep, something in me couldn't do the same. I sighed grabbing Taylor's recorder, deleting the second recording and pressing play, it silently beeped to signal the start of the recording. I cuddled into Joel, stroking his hair as I took deep breaths in, Mark's old lullaby filling the room... "Darling, I'd wait for you" I rested my chin on his head, closing my eyes "Even if you didn't ask me to Tie a lasso 'round the Moon And bring it on down to you" I moved my head to press a soft kiss on his head. "I'd bottle the feeling you give me, and shelve that stuff for years to come. 'Cause baby, when your arms are around me I'd swear that I'm holding the Sun" I paused for moment, the familiar song making my chest cave in. "I'd give you the Sun if you asked me, you could have all of the time you could have the stars and the trees when dividing up the Universe, you could have mine. Darling, I'd wish that you could give me some more time... to herd the whole sky in my arms and release it when you're mine." I got to the end of the lullaby, deciding to continue to add another few lines. "I'd tell you I thought I loved you too I just didn't have the words to say. But I'd put the piece in your backyard In hopes to be enough for you to stay." I finished, the painful smile of my child clouding my mind. I'd made that lullaby for Mark when he was just a baby, before I even adopted him. That's how Lily knew I'd be a perfect father for him. And now it was for Joel. Handsome, caring, sweet, wonderful Joel. My Joel.
~~~ Finished- 6:12pm 25/03/2023 Sad, sad, gay and gay. Joel is in his asshole era, get well soon Joel. Y'all aren't ready for how cute the next one is gonna be, cause we all need healing after this.
