Tides Turned (Ruin #1)

Chapter 25

CHAPTER 25

I didn't know how I managed to continue my life like nothing had happened.

Every time I go to sleep, I always cry, and my chest is heavy. I have to cover my mouth so Grace can't hear my sobs. I don't want her to worry about me again.

After I left the mansion, si Grace agad ang tinawagan ko. Siya lang ang bukod tanging malalapitan ko. I asked her if I can stay with her for a while. Surprisingly, pumayag siya. She didn't hesitate to let me in and stay with her.

Hindi ko sinabi kay Grace ang totoong rason kung bakit ako umalis sa mansyon. Ang tanging alam niya lang ay pinalayas na ako. Iyon ang sinabi ko sa kaniya. I don't want anyone to know what really happened. I decided to keep it only by myself. After all it was all my mess. Gulo ko 'yon, at wala ng iba pang dapat na makaalam.

Pansamantala akong tumutuloy sa apartment ngayon ni Grace and I am doing all I can to help her. Kasalukuyan nang nagtatrabaho si Grace sa Vuenoista. Ginawa nga ni Kael ang sinabi niya na tutulungan niya si Grace at bibigyan niya ito ng trabaho. Autumn was the one who trained her.

Halos dalawang linggo na rin ang nakalipas simula nang umalis ako sa mansyon. Simula no'n ay wala na akong narinig na balita tungkol kay Kael. Gustuhin ko mang tanungin si Grace ay hindi ko na ginawa. Mas maganda na rin 'yon sa aming dalawa. Mas magiging madali para sa amin ang magpatuloy.

But even if I don't admit it, I know to myself that I really want to see him again. Kahit saglit lang. Tatanawin ko lang siya mula sa malayo. Dahil alam kong hindi na puwede at hanggang doon na lang ang magagawa ko.

I exhaled strongly.

I miss him. . . araw-araw, gabi-gabi, palagi. Walang panahon at oras na hindi siya sumagi sa isipan ko. Sometimes, I found myself staring at my phone, tinitingnan ang litrato naming dalawa. Kinakabisado ang mukha niya. May mga pagkakataon na binabasa ko lahat ng mensahe na pinadala sa akin noon ni Kael. I read them over and over again. Hindi ko namamalayan na habang ginagawa ko ang mga bagay na iyon ay lumuluha na ako.

I miss his voice, smile, the sounds of his laughs, his touch, his smell. The way he care about me, how he made me feel, and how he showed me and felt his love. I miss everything about him.

Our love is like walking in the long road. We walk along a long road, holding hands. We know we're happy that we're crossing the road together. We loved each other. Ngunit hindi pa man din kami nakakarating sa dulo, I chose to let go. I chose to leave and turn away. I realized that I am not the better person for him. I have to let him go. Because I know that even if we continue our love, we will continue to ruin each other.

It wasn't long enough. I know I love the right man but this time, I am the wrong person for him. Kael doesn't deserve me. At all.

"Tulala ka na naman. Pagkain mo, oh!" inusog niya ang pinggan sa harapan ko. "Lumamig na lang 'yan."

Bigla ay napabalik ako sa realidad. I glanced at Grace who was currently giving me an evil look.

I blink twice. "S-Sorry, may naisip lang."

Umarko ang kilay niya. "Si Sir Kael ba 'yan?"

Napatigil ako at kaagad na nagbaba ng tingin. I didn't respond. Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko. Do I have to answer her? I don't know. Hindi ko yata kaya. I could hear her loud, deep breaths.

"Masaya siya ngayon,"

I automatically looked up. I gazed at her as if I was waiting for her to continue what she's going to say.

"Palaging magkasama si Sir Kael at Autumn. Kung nasaan si Kael nandoon si Autumn. Ganoon naman ang trabaho ng secretary, hindi ba?" her voice sounded serious.