Finding Myself ✓

Chapter 15: Ball is in your court.

Phiwokuhle's POV

"Did you ever ask for help after it happened?" asks Kwenzo. "No I didn't. I was scared and i thought if I tell my family they will turn their backs against me because they know this guy more than I do." I answer. "I'm really sorry for what you went through. Nobody is supposed to experience what you have experienced and remember I'm there." "Thank you."

I give him a bone crushing hug and he chuckles. "Who knew I was gonna find myself some friends in this school." I say. "The universe knew." he says and we laugh. "Lets go chill with the others before they start questioning our whereabouts and we will be forced to answer unanswerable questions." "Asambe." We walk out of the class and go to our spot.

When they see us approaching they start smiling and Kheto is busy clapping his hands and i fight the urge to roll my eyes. Kwenzo doesn't see me in that way and i don't see him that way too. I see Ayesha in this way, i think i have a crush on her. Yes his cute and has a nice personality but I don't have feelings for him. We sit down and greet them.

"And then you guys say you just friends." says Khulekani. "Maybe its because we are just friends." says Kwenzo. "Yeah right we believe you lovey dovey." I look at Ayesha and i see her rolling her eyes. I still haven't talked to her about the kiss and I've been doing my best to avoid her at all cost ukuthi why nami i don't know. She didn't do anything wrong in fact the person whose at fault here is me.

"But then I still say you would make a good couple. Right Ayesha." says Khulekani. Ayesha stares at him for a brief second before she nods and mumbles a yes. "Are you okay?" "Yeah I am fine. I'll see you guys when I see you I gotta go." She stands up and takes her bags and leaves. I watch her walk away from us and i feel a slight feeling of sadness.

Things were going good between us and now a stupid kiss had to ruin it all...it was not stupid because you enjoyed it...now isn't the time subconscious. Somebody kicks my leg under the bench and i look up and Kwenzo shakes his head no. What is that supposed to mean? As if he read my mind I get a text from him.

Mean girls❤: Don't sulk about it go talk to her.
Me: About what?
Mean girls❤: I don't mind spelling it out for you. My eyes widen in shock how did he know? "Is everything okay?" asks Tristan. "Yeah don't worry I'm fine. Gossip sure knows how to leave a girl shook." I answer. "Okay."

Mean girls❤: Heard from the horse's mouth. I leave him on read and start eating my lunch. Why did Ayesha have to tell Kwenzo that we kissed? I thought we were gonna talk about it as civilized kids not run to one of our friends in the group. But maybe she needed someone to talk to after I ghosted her.

I open my bag and check where I'm going after break and it's life science. Good I'll find her there and that will be my chance to talk to her about this whole thing. Why did I get myself into this mess? The bell rings and i put my lunch box away and go to class.

I find Ayesha standing in the line and i stand behind her. "Hey can we talk." I say and she scoffs. "Now you want to talk." she says. "Yes I want to talk now." "I'm not interested." "Why did you tell him?" "Who?" "You know who exactly I'm talking about." "He wasn't supposed to say anything." "He didn't say anything I just caught on to what he wanted to say." "I needed someone to vent to since you were ignoring me."

The teacher comes outside and tells us to leave our bags here because we writing a test. How come I didn't know about this test? I take out my pencil case and put my bag down. I guess this conversation is saved for later on.