Finding Myself ✓

Chapter 20: Pay for lying about me.

Phiwokuhle's POV

We break apart from the kiss to catch our breaths. That was amazing and i got what do you call those things in your stomach...butterflies. She is such an amazing kisser and this time we took our time and didn't rush or let it end abruptly like I did the first time. After a minute or so of silence I break it by apologizing.

"I'm sorry Ayesha. I was supposed to call you and let you know that I won't be able to make it. Instead I let you make your own assumptions that maybe I ghosted you or I was lying to you when I asked for that meet up. My dad didn't allow me to go and i took a nap and forgot to get back to you...I'm sorry Ayesha please forgive me." I say. I almost told her that he was going to beat me up if I defied his orders and i know that was going to lead to questions that I'm not ready to answer.

"I wish you had called or at least leave a lousy text. I forgive you Phiwo. You sure do like playing a run around in order to get what you want." she says and we laugh. "Will you make me the happiest girl in the world and be my girlfriend?" I ask. I don't know where I got the bravery from but it came from somewhere. "Are you asking me out?" "Yes I am so answer me before I beat the truth out of you."

She chuckles. "I'll be your girlfriend." she says and i squeal. "Don't ask where I got the courage from." I say and we laugh. "So you mine?" "I'm yours for as long as you mine." She pulls me in for a hug and i embrace it. It feels good getting hugged by your partner especially if she is tall and beautiful. We break the hug and just stare at each other. I can't believe I asked her out. "Would it be a crime to kiss you again?" "It wouldn't be."

As we were about to kiss the bell rang signalling that break is over. She pecks my lips multiple times before we walk to our next class...doing a backflip... I can't believe she's officially mine and that I had the balls to ask her out. I am so proud of myself right now. I really hope this relationship works. I literally can't contain my excitement.

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I enter my dad's house and sigh. Today was one of the best yet horrible days because my father's words kept on ringing in my head during the lessons. I can't afford to be distracted by such nonsensical issues when exams are around the corner. At least Ayesha is mine so I don't have to be crying over a girl. I go to my bedroom and change out of my uniform and put my pjamas.

I start with my homework and when I'm done i go downstairs and greet my mom. "Mama." I hug and kiss her cheek. "I wonder what got you in a good mood." she says. "You could have asked how I am instead of saying that whole speech." "How are you?" "I'm good and you." She smiles. "I'm okay."

"As your best friend I don't like the fact that you lied." I say. "Just like you lie 90% of the time." she says. "Fair enough. Do you think your husband will change?" "I don't want to talk about it." "Ma you weren't supposed to tell him we leaving. He was supposed to see us gone now you've just ruined our chances." She gives me that look and i know I overstepped the line.

"I'm sorry mama." I say. "Phiwokuhle i don't want you to think that it's easy to leave cause it's not." she says. "I know that mama but s..." "Phiwokuhle let's not talk to each other like we age mates. It's not easy to leave if it was I would have packed my bags and left the day it began but I couldn't." I roll my eyes. "You'll call me when dinner is ready."

I go upstairs to chill in my bedroom. I take my phone and decide to call Kwenzo to try and distract myself from overthinking and getting hurt at the end of that over thinking session. She is always making excuses but she can't give me an exact reason as to why she can't leave yet she continues making excuses for that lousy man. I FaceTime him and he answers immediately.