Phiwokuhle's POV
"I can't believe you making me teary eyed yet I'm going out." I say and mom chuckles. "I'm sorry but I had to tell you guys now. I've been learning a lot during therapy and i hope I can repair our relationship. You are my babies and i love you guys so much. I hope you did well this term despite the situation." says mom.
"Sizobona ngereport." says Mandisa. "But whatever mark you get just know I won't be angry at you. But next term we will be pulling up our socks." says mom. "Only if you don't do what you did now then we shall pull up our socks." I say and the whole room becomes quiet. "Too soon?" They nod.
I stand up and continue packing while they make jokes. I may have forgiven her now but it doesn't mean what she did sits right with me. I'm stuck between a place and a hard rock. I know my mom loves us and all but if she really did she wouldn't have let us grow up in a toxic environment. I want to ask her why she stayed instead of leaving but I don't want to push her away.
She's at her lowest now and i don't want to be negative or anything. So I'll stick to being positive and ask her one day why she stayed and endured this toxicity cause look how her kids turned out. The others aren't that bad but me, I don't even want to go into depths with my problems.
"Why are you so quiet?" asks mom. "Nothing." I answer. "Are you sure?" "I'm positive you don't need to worry about me." I take my phone and check my bank balance and i still have money. I don't know what i would have done if I saw that my money is finished. I am really excited for this break and i don't need anything to hold me back. "Let me go then."
Musa and Mandisa hug me first. "I shall miss you." says Mandisa. "Like you said I will only be gone for a day so no need to miss me." I say. "Can I sleep in your room tonight?" asks Musa. "No. You have your own room so why bother me." "Its not mine alone because I share it with this thing next to me."
Mandisa smacks the back of his head and we laugh. "Okay not thing sibling." says Musa and we laugh. "Continue sharing a room with that sibling of yours because I don't want you here. If you dare sleep here you shall suffer the consequences and i refuse to be held accountable for my actions because I warned you." I say. "Fine." We chuckle.
"Be safe Phiwokuhle. I know we don't let you go out a lot but it's because of the dangers that lurk out there. Always stay as a group and be vigilant. I can't lose my first born daughter." says mom. "Okay ma I'll be safe. Any weapons I can use if needed be?" I ask. "I have a pepper spray in my bag let me go fetch it."
She stands up and leaves. "I was about to say I already deal with danger here so how is it different from the outside danger." I say and Phiwokwakhe chuckles. "I share the same sentiments. If there is an emergency call us." he says. "Don't worry i will and I'll take ma's advice." "Good." Ma comes in and she gives me the spray.
"Uhambe kahle." she says. (Travel safely.) "Okay ma and don't worry i will take your advice of staying in the group." I say. "And please don't leave the market late late." "Yes mommy dearest." She chuckles. "I'm serious Phiwokuhle. It is dangerous out there." "Nami ngiserious ungakhathazeki." (I'm also serious don't worry.)
My phone buzzes and it's a text from Ayesha.
Babe❤🤗: Are you done?
Me: Yes I am done wena.
Babe❤🤗: I'm already on my way there, should I come and fetch you or you don't mind using a taxi.
Me: It's fine you can fetch me. Did they give you permission to take the car?
Babe❤🤗: Yes they did.
Me: Do you have your learners?
Babe❤🤗: Yes I do. I have everything don't worry. I'm on my way.
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