I WEIRD YOU ❤️

BREAKUP

HARSH's P.O.V

9 FEBRUARY 20xx,

"AKHIYAN DE KOL REH JANE DE KEHNA HAI JO KEH JANE DE," SHE IS STANDING JUST IN FRONT OF ME COVERING HER FACE WITH THE SAME WHITE SAREE, ONLY HER BEAUTIFUL EYES ARE VISIBLE. I START WALKING TOWARDS HER.

"TERE KHYALO ME BEETE YE RATE DIL MERA MANGE TERI DUA," THE NEXT MOMENT SHE JUST DISAPPEARED IN WIND AND I TURN AROUND TO FIND HER SITTING ON THE STAIRS OF GURDWARA. LOOKING AT THE ENTRY GATE.

"TU SAMNE HO OR KRU ME BATE LMHA RHE YUUN THEHRA HUA," I RUN TOWARDS HER TO SAY THE THINGS IN MY MIND TO CLEAR ALL MY CONFUSIONS, TO KNOW WHAT IS OUR CONNECTION. SHE TURNED TO ME.

"PHLE TO KABHI YUUN MUJHKO NA ESA KUCH HUA DIWANI LEHRO KO JAISE SAGAR MILA HOOO," I EXTEND MY HAND TO REACH HER BUT SHE BACKED AWAY AND SMILED WHILE STARING INTO MY EYES WITH THOSE BIG CHOCOLATE BROWN EYES.

"EK LADKI KO DEKHA TO ESA LGA- "BRO COMMON IT's BEEN THREE MONTHS OF YOU SINGING THIS SONG. JUST FIND HER AND TELL HER WHAT YOU FEEL ABOUT HER" TUSHAR HUFFS.

I JUST ROLL MY EYES AT HIM NOT BOTHERING TO REPLY AS HE INTERRUPTED MY IMAGINATION AND SONG AS WELL. I HATE WHEN SOMEONE INTERRUPTS MY SINGING.

"BRO, YOU NEED TO GROW SOME BALLS. BE A MAN AND TALK TO HER. FIRST OF ALL, FIND HER" WELL MY BEST FRIEND DOES NOT UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF IGNORANCE.

"I'M JUST SINGING THIS SONG BECAUSE IT's MY FAVOURITE SONG AND STOP YOUR NONSENSE, I HAVE A GIRLFREIND" I SAID WITH IRRITATION CLEAR IN MY VOICE.

TUSHAR STARTS LAUGHING (OKAY WE ARE BACK TO THE SAME DISCUSSION) MY THOUGHTS CUT SHORT BY HIS REPLY "DO YOU REALLY THINK NATASHA DESERVES TO BE CALLED AS YOUR GIRLFREIND? BRO, SHE IS NOT INTO YOU SHE JUST WANTS FAME AND ATTENTION OF EVERYONE HERE OR MAYBE A TIMEPASS BOYFREIND WHO CAN PAY HER BILLS" I HATE TUSHAR AS HE IS SPILLING TRUTH BUT I'M SO DAME STUBBORN TO ACCEPT THIS.

"SHE IS A GODDAM DOCTOR. WHY WOULD SHE WANT ME TO PAY HER BILLS?" NOW I'M GETTING ANGRY. I'M A VERY CALM PERSON AS I DON'T LIKE LOSING MY TEMPER BUT SINCE THAT GIRL CAME INTO MY LIFE, SHE FUCKING CHANGED IT. I DON'T EVEN KNOW HER, WELL PRACTICALLY I KNOW HER BY HER FAMILY BUT NOT PERSONALLY. HER BIG BROWN EYES ARE STUCK TO MY MEMORY. EVERY TIME I CLOSE MY EYES HER EYES HAUNTS ME, HER TEAR-STAINED CHEEKS DOESN'T LET ME SLEEP. I HATE HER.

"OKAY SHE DOESN'T WANT YOU TO PAY HER BILLS. BUT YOU KNOW SHE DOESN'T LOVE YOU AND YOU DON'T LOVE HER EITHER. THEN WHY THIS RELATIONSHIP?" TUSHAR ASKS AS HE SITS WITH ME ON THE HOSPITAL BED KEPT IN DOCTORS REST ROOM WITH CONCERN IN HIS TONE. I KNOW HE HATES HER AS HE KNOW HOW SHE HURT ME EVERY TIME. HE KNOWS ABOUT MY PAST THAT IS WHY HE IS ALWAYS CONCERNED ABOUT ME.

"I DO LOVE HER AND LOVE IS NOT ABOUT GETTING IT BACK, IT'S ABOUT FEELING IT FROM YOUR SIDE. SHE WILL LOVE ME IF SHE FIND ME WORTHY OF HER LOVE." I TRY TO CONVINCE HIM BUT THE FACT IS I'M NOT CONVINCED WITH THIS EITHER. (WHY I'M WITH NATASHA, SHE HURTS ME EVERY SINGLE DAY AND MOST IMPORTANTLY DO I REALLY LOVE HER?) THIS QUESTION IS ON MY MIND SINCE I STARTED THIS RELATIONSHIP. I GUESS WE WERE BETTER AS FRIENDS.

"STOP WITH YOUR BULLSHIT GYAAN HARSH. SHE IS JUST MISUSING YOU. DO YOU REALLY THINK SHE CARES FOR YOU. SHE BROKE UP WITH YOU 300 TIMES IN LAST 3 MONTHS OF YOUR RELATIONSHIP JUST BECAUSE YOU WERE WORKING AND DIDN'T GIVE HER FUCKING ATTENTION. ADMIT THIS! SHE IS WITH YOU BECAUSE SHE WANT FAME, AFTERALL MY BEST FRIEND IS THE MOST HANDSOME DOCTOR HERE." HE SAID WITH A SMALL SMILE AND PROUD IN HIS EYES.

WE ARE BEST FRIENDS FOR 15 YEARS. HE AND DALJEET KNOWS ME THE BEST. THEY ARE REALLY PROUD OF ME. BUT I DON'T KNOW IF I'M PROUD OF MYSELF OR NOT. I'M JUST FULFILLING MY FATHER'S WISH BUT WHAT ABOUT MY DREAM WHICH IS STILL BREAKING?