the new baller in town

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Well, I'm back running, jogging on a pitch so me and ona have been going for small jogs along side the river and had many nights out with her team, kinda feel like my team now, haven't really seen the arsenal girls since I left about 5 months ago, I might go back soon, this is the longest I've been away from my sister ever, but my rehab is nearly done, I'm starting to be integrated with the team so I can start kicking kicking ball, its been great I'm nearly back, full time, but training with man U has made it feel like home, if I got offered a place here I would take it.

The season came to an end and started again, we are in December now and I haven't been home for since I left, I'm going back for my last month of rehab so I can join my actual team, I miss them but I'm gonna miss ona and lessi, but I need to go back to my family, I want to go back to the red and white after all I can't let London turn blue.

The months were hard, I went through a 1 month depressive space, it was awful, ona had to physically drag me out of her bed I could barely do anything with out feeling like shit, at one point I was on the verge of Sh, I didn't but I nearly fell into that trap again, I did when I was 12, I refuse to go back to that place, thats why I think its best I go home, I don't want to be that burden on ona, it isn't fair for her to deal with, so I decide to go home after watching their match.

Manchester won against Aston villa 3-2 it was a good game and ona pulled me out of the crowd in a hug she knew I was leaving and had tear running down her face.
"Hey, don't cry, I'll be back before you know, I spent Christmas up here, I stayed here for months, I will be back, I promise," I say wiping her tears, she takes of her shirt and gives it to me," your my best friend, ok, I love you," I say into her neck.
"I love you to," she responds.

@ ona.battlle

Today is a sad day, @ Ella8williamson is leaving to go back to arsenal and there were many tears shed and I did give her my shirt hence the one she is wearing, then got my spare and we sat on the pitch once everyone had left

Ella, I'm glad I got to be the one to help you through your rehab and join you on this journeythat had many ups and downs, love you and I'll see you soon, have a safe journey my friend ❤

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Ella8williamson
This made me cry, love you to my friend, I'll see you soon ❤❤

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@ Ella8williamson

@ ona.battlle, thank you for being by my side through the toughest of times, I appreciate everything you and
@ Manunitedwfc for everything you have done for me, I seriously can't thank you enough.
Ona, looking back over the last few months we have spent they were the best I have experienced, I'm gonna miss spend everyday with my best friend, love you and see you soon ❤❤

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Ona.battlle
Gonna miss you, you better come back soon, love you to ❤❤

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She drove me to the train station and we spent at least an hour saying goodbye to each other, when I got on the train I was sad to leave, I dont want to but I need to go home so I'm not a burden on her, it was the most recent month that was the depressive episode.
The train was boring, I had many messages from ona asking if I was home, I'm gonna leave her in delivered for a bit just to let it sink in that I have actually left, I get back at around 10pm, and leah is there waiting. I immediately break down into tears when I reach her.
"Come on let's go home," she says opening my door.
"I can't do this, leah, I left there so I wasn't a burden on them but I don't want to be a burden on you either,leah I was so close to doing it again," I say as we pull up to the house.
" Listen to me, you are ok, we are gonna get through the last bump in the road, I will help you every step of the way ok, your my sister and I love you," she says as she carries me to my room as my leg was hurting quite a bit.

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Well final month of rehab done, back at training and have a match tomorrow am I ready no, no I'm not, am I terrified yes, definitely, we are playing Everton, so it should be an easy win, I am not going to lie and say I messaged ona, I miss her so much but I haven't spoken to her as it has been a slow process of pulling myself out of the pit of depression I seemed to have submerged myself in, but I think I'm gonna be ok, as I have had the support of my gunner family around me, lia has been staying over and cooking for me, she is abit like my mother, who I havent seen for a few weeks but is coming to the game tomorrow, she actually gets to see me play, its about time, I should've been playing all season, but my body was like nope, I have a better feeling this season, I feel like this season may hold a better fate for me ......