the new baller in town

~80~

"hey guys, did you miss me, cause I missed you," I say coming through the gates of st Georges park, I lost a bet with Beth and that was what I had to say when I came through the gates.

I'm slightly nervous I'm not going to lie it will be the first time I've seen Alessia since she asked for a break. We havent really spoke. I miss her but am I really ready to see her

I mean it's been 6 months since she asked for it so I don't know what to do

"Hey," Alessia says making eye contact with me and walking over. Ok maybe I'm not ready." How are you," she says hugging me quickly before releasing me.
"Hi, I'm good, how are you," well that was an absolute lie, I didn't think of would hurt this much. How can it hurt this much. I thought I was fine, I mean I was.
"I'm great, I heard your song, it's amazing, really shows who you are," she says smiling at me, what Is going on.

"Ellie," I say spotting her from across the room.
"Hey el, how are you doing," she says hugging me and resting her head in my neck.
"I'm good," I say wrapping my arms gently around her waist. I see people looking so I pull away, I feel guilty. I don't know why we are just friends," it's good to see you Ellie," I say walking over to my sister.

"So Ella, what is going on with you and Ellie and when's the next song being released," Beth says with a wink when she mentions Ellie, this then gets the attention of some of the others.
"Nothing we are friends,and plus I'm still technically with alessia and possibly today," I say looking through the title names of the song. That one, that's the one I need for today.

You don't know what love means- Ella Williamson.

You don't know what love means
And it's killing me
Know what love means
And it's killing me
Holding on, spinning out
All my faith turns to doubts
Hopes and dreams, plans we had
Set ablaze, a burning crash
I hope you get all your shit back together
I hope you know only you can make you better
And there's a world in which the two of us can still be sane
You'll see, so let's be honest
Let's be honest
You don't know what love means
And it's killing me
Don't know what love means
And it's killing me
I tried and tried 'til it made me sick
'Round and 'round, a toxic mix
Walls built up, you shut down
Ulcer grows, we're bleeding out
I hope you get all your shit back together
I hope you know only you can make you better
Let's be honest
Yeah, let's be honest
You don't know what love means
And it's killing me
Don't know what love means
And it's killing me
We're colliding, losing hope
Can we make it further on our own?
We keep colliding and we're losing hope
On a one-way street going down a broken road
Crashing endlessly
I can't sleep, I can't eat
There's no rest and there's no peace
So let's be honest
Let's be honest
Don't know what love means
And it's killing me
Know what love means
And it's killing me, yeah
We're colliding, losing hope
Can we make it further on our own?
We keep colliding and we're losing hope
On a one-way street going down a broken road
Crashing endlessly
Crashing endlessly
We keep crashing (crashing)
We keep crashing endlessly

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"So I guess we are sharing a room together," alessia says seeing me led on one of the beds.
"Yeh we are," I mumble looking at the reactions to the new song.
"Heard the new song, feel like there is a theme here," she says making me look in her direction.
"You could say that," I say seeing the positivity coming through.
"It's a brilliant song Ella, I like it," she says laying on her bed.
"I wrote a few like that, it was my way of coping," I admit to her.

Truth or dare my least favourite game but I agreed to it.
"Ok, I dare you to kiss Ella w," Beth says and I look up shocked. Wait what who's kissing me. Oh fuck no, I think as I see Alessia walking towards me.
"No,I can't," I say walking out the room and sitting on the floor outside the room.
I hear the door creak and see Leah looking at me with sad eyes.
"You ok," she asks joining me on the floor.
"Yeh, I'm good," I say leaning my head against the wall.
"That was uncalled for, Beth shouldn't have done that, you want to come back in," she says quietly as we both hear the door open again.

We both stand up and head back in to continue the game.
"Ella, truth or dare," Ella toone says.
"Dare," I say not really wanting to do this.
"Kiss Ellie," she says.
"No, I can't," I say quietly not happy in this situation now.
"Ella," Alessia says offering her hand to me and taking me out the room. I look back at Ellie and sigh.