the new baller in town

~53~

I've been going through my phone for ages just listening to old voicemails of missed calles between Alessia and I, when I stumble upon one I've never heard, I don't know whether to listen to it, I could delete and pretend to never have got it, I've done that a few times when she has tried to call recently, and it made me feel extremely bad, she was the best thing in my life, a constant that isn't there anymore, and I'm not a fan, at least I have my best friend now, which is one thing I didn't have around the world cup when everything fell to shit and my world literally came crashing down. I don't ever want to feel like that again, don't think my heart could take it and neither could my bank account, cost me so much money on random useless shit that I don't need, bought a new bike as well so that was one of the more expensive purchases, don't regret it it's a beautiful bike, a Yamaha R1 in pastel purple, the dream bike for me, got another one on the way as well. This voicemail, I still don't know what to do, just to hear her voice might put me at ease I miss her, so much its not normal.

Voicemail......
"Hey el, i know you've probably blocked my number hance why I'm using someone else's phone, I'm so sorry about how I chose to end things and letting you go was the biggest mistake of my life, I love you so much Ella, I can't do this without you by my side, I miss you I need you, I can't be just Alessia, it was always us, us against the world I don't know how to be without you, if you get this message, just know I love you and all the mistakes made were my fault i shouldn't have done them and have no one to blame but my self, you deserve a proper explanation that doesn't end in a shouting match, so if you here this ill see you soon, i love you el, always and forever,"
I don't know what to do with this information, I, I can't think of anything, I need to listen again, just hearing her voices Heals something in me, god I love her voice, and her.

"Ella, everything ok," ona asks collapsing onto the sofa but missing it completely and falling flat on her arse.
"Dumbass," I laugh but struggling to breathe, that was really funny I'm not going to lie.
"Don't laugh, bitch," she mumbles
"Jerk," I say picking her off the floor," yeh I'm good, just thinking," I say turning the TV on and seeing that there are random attacks on women in the city happening recently.What the fuck is wrong with some people honestly, I don't understand these psychotic assholes. If people ever try and hurt anyone in this house I swear to god they won't be able to hurt anyone ever again. I'm not dealing with that shit, they can fuck right off.

Knock, knock.
"I'll get it," I say as ona doesn't appear to want to move.
"What are doing here," I say with a small smile. As she shifts nervously on the balls of her feet.
"Telling you that everything I did was a mistake and that I can't go through this life without you by my side Ella, if you will have me I want back in," she says slightly swaying as she stands. I look back and forth down the street and shut the door behind me before pulling her into a hug, god I missed her, I know I said I was learning to live with it but I wasn't. She said she can't do it without me by her side, I feel the same, she's my rock stopping me from drifting to far to return.
" I can't do this without you either, love," I say gently tilting her head up so I can connect our lips.
" I love you, I'm so sorry for everything I did, I have no excuses, and I will make it up to you in anyway, and any form possible, please don't leave me," she says grabbing my waist pulling me back towards her.
" I wouldn't dream of it," I say opening the door again as I saw 3 men looking in our direction and look longingly at Alessia, get fucked mate not a chance, this one is mine.i bring her into my arms and through the door locking it behind us, and put the safety thing on just to make sure nothing can happen, that news story really fucked with my head.
"Your not leaving tonight," i say in a meaningful way as I don't want her to get hurt but I think she thought I ment it in a seductive way.
" Oh really," she says running her fingers along my jaw and stomach.
" No, no, not like that but I wouldn't complain, just I saw some guys looking at you earlier and I don't want you to get hurt baby," I say scratching the back of my head.
"What the fuck is she doing here," ona shouts from the living room door.
" Calm down ona," i say going to hug her as well.

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"Hey," Alessia says standing between my legs as I am sat at the end of the bed.
"Hey," i repeat back to her laying down with my legs still hanging over the end.
"You alright," she asks sitting on my stomach with her legs either side of me.
"Yeh, I'm good, just promise me you won't cheat again," I ask whilst making heavy eye contact.
"I wouldn't dream of it," she says kissing me and deepening it each time.....