Predestined - JENSOO - ENGLISH VERSION

Chapter 4

Two weeks after the breakup, Bohyun gave up hope and came to get his things that were here at my home. He was quiet, almost as if he was exploring unfamiliar terrain, as he didn't seem to know how to act towards me, but I could still see the loving, hopeful look that was on his face.

It was almost as if he was waiting for me to say that I regretted it and that we should get back together, but fortunately or unfortunately, nothing had changed since we broke up. I still haven't figured out what's wrong with me, the only thing I've realized is that breaking up was my best decision in a long time.

I fill the mug with coffee and sit down in the living room to continue writing another article when I hear the door opening. I don't need to look up to know that Chaelisa arrived just because of the chaotic energy they exude.

"Hey, Chichu, what happened to Bohyun? We met him downstairs and he looked so sad." Rosé says. I forgot that I hadn't told them about the breakup.

"In fact, he looked defeated, almost as if a truck had run him over. You two fought?" Lisa says and I look up at her to see Rosé poking her. "Aish! He really looked bad." the thai woman whispers softly, but I can still hear and hold back the laugh that wants to escape.

"We never fight, you know that." I shrug and look back at the laptop screen.

"So what..."

"We broke up." I interrupt Lisa and the silence that follows hurts my ears.

"Jisoo, are you serious?" Rosé approaches slowly, sitting next to me and taking the notebook from my hands, placing it on the coffee table. She's looking at me with such seriousness and such a strange expression that it looks like a third eye has sprouted on my forehead.

"Yeah." I say simply and feel the sofa sink again, now with Lisa.

"What? Why? What happened?" the thai woman practically shouts in my ear.

"LISA!" I shout back at her and take a deep breath "It wasn't working."

"JISOO!" now it's Rosé's turn to scream and slap me a few times. "Tell us everything. I want details!"

"There's not much to say, there was a day when I realized I wasn't happy and I didn't want it anymore. That simple."

"That simple? Did a 2-year relationship end out of nowhere? You were the perfect couple." Lisa says in an indignant tone.

"I know, but for me it ended sooner, much sooner, it just took me a while to realize it." I look at Lisa and her mouth is open with so much surprise "Bohyun is an incredible guy, I couldn't continue with him because I would be being unfair. He deserves someone who loves him and I can't be that person."

"Does this have to do with your flirting? Are you liking someone different?" Rosé says in a suggestive tone and I raise one of my eyebrows to look at her.

"What do you mean? I don't like anyone and since I broke up with Bohyun, I haven't been flirting as much, I barely have time to chat on Twitter." I look at the blonde without understanding what she's getting at.

"And are you happy? I mean, how did you feel about the breakup? Was difficult?" Lisa gives my knee a light squeeze.

"I'm lighter, I think." I say thoughtfully, trying to do a quick analysis of the last few weeks "It's very bad to be unhappy or not satisfied with something. I've been feeling different and I still can't figure out what it is, I want to use this time to find a way to find myself."

"I never thought you guys would break up one day." Rosé says after a few minutes.

"Me neither." I let out a sigh. "Sometimes, I still can't believe it's all over. We talk regularly, but we're slowly growing apart, which is normal, I think. It seems like something is missing, you know?"

"I can't imagine being without Rosé." Lisa says and I hear the passionate sigh of the blonde next to me.

"Oh, you're not going to start with this bullshit here." I push them to the side and they start laughing.

"And your virtual friends, how are they?" Lisa pokes me and I roll my eyes.

"Well, I think? Soojoo is talking more than before, now that I have more free time, she wants to talk all the time." I shrug.

"This girl is weird." Rosé makes a weird expression and I start laughing.

"She's just needy and got attached to me, I'm a great friend." I wink at her who now starts to laugh.

"Stop, you weren't born for that."

"I still find all this neediness and dependence on her very strange." Lisa says in a reproachful tone "Rosie, can you believe she keeps asking Chichu where she is, who she is with and asking for a photo of whatever she's doing?"

"Come on, Lili, she just wants to know. She's curious, there's nothing wrong with it, it's just her way." I shrug "Sometimes it bothers me, but most of the time I think it's normal."

"She acts like a jealous and controlling girlfriend." Lisa shakes her head in denial.

"I would never date her, I see her as a younger sister, that's all."

"HEY! I'M YOUR YOUNGER SISTER!" the thai woman slaps me hard on the arm "I don't accept sharing this position."

"Control yourself, jealous!" I squeeze her cheeks and she hits my hand and I hear Rosé laughing at us.

After annoying me wanting to know more details about my life, they finally leave the room and I pick up the laptop to go back to work. After almost 2 hours, I manage to finish my article and publish it on the website.

I stretch out a little and go on Twitter, make some tweets complaining about my work and reply to some people when I see a tweet from Jen also complaining about class and I end up smiling involuntarily. I think about answering her, but I remember how cordial she was when I tried to talk to her and I ended up giving up.

Sometimes people don't want to talk, they just want to vent and get on with their lives. It's a shame, because I really wanted to be her friend, but maybe she's just not a fan of making friends online, there are different types of people.

I end up wasting some time getting involved in random conversations with some "acquaintances" on this social network and when I look at the clock, it's almost 1 am. I turn off the notebook and pick up my phone, walking towards my room, when the phone screen lights up with a notification, making me stop in my tracks and my heart speed up a little with surprise.

New direct message:

Jen

So that means you're a writer, huh?