Predestined - JENSOO - ENGLISH VERSION

Chapter 60

I think this is the hardest conversation I've ever had in my entire life.

Since my mother got on board, I've been in a crying fit for at least 30 minutes that hasn't stopped for anything. I've already drunk water, I've used breathing techniques. I don't know what else to do to make this crying crisis stop.

🐻: Chu, I told my mom about us.

I text Jisoo and rub my forehead. I wipe my tears that continue to fall and hear the phone ringing.

Video call from Jisoo.

"Jennie, what happened?" I don't think I've ever seen my girlfriend as worried as she is now.

"I told my mom."

"What? How? Today? Jennie?" now she is shocked.

"Yes, I did. She just got on board to leave." I take a deep breath, trying to control the tears "I have a crying spell that won't subside, my head is hurting." Jisoo stares at me, looking incredulous.

"How did she react? Was it that bad?"

"She was quiet at times and I ended up talking more than her, but I think she was shocked by the news."

"But what did she say?"

"I explained to her who I was and tried to say that this is normal nowadays, but in her mind I was straight, I don't know how that is possible."

"Straight?!" Jisoo furrows her eyebrows.

"Yes, but she thought that way and despite seeming scared, she said that if she accepted other people's children, she also accepted me and that she will support me."

"Was she very shocked?"

"At first yes, but then she seemed sad, you know?"

"I think I can imagine that."

"One way or another, she accepted, asked some questions about you, if you worked, if I paid for things for you." I shrug "It was peaceful, in a way, but I felt very scared."

"I didn't think you were going to do that just yet."

"Me either."

"You asked me for time to work on this on yourself until you felt ready, I had agreed." Jisoo says and sighs "Did I pressure you in any way? Did I do or say something to put you against the wall? I thought I was understanding and being patient, but apparently..."

"Jisoo." I say seriously and she stops talking "You didn't do anything wrong."

"I'm not so sure about that."

"I'm serious, I was tired of hiding our relationship if there was no reason to do so" she just nods for me to continue talking "So I decided to speak."

"But were you ready?" the redhead says after a few minutes.

"No." I take a deep breath "But if I didn't speak today, I don't know when it would happen."

"Jennie..."

"Jisoo, I was being unfair. You stood up to your clearly homophobic mother to come out to us while I remained afraid, even though my mother never showed that she was homophobic."

"I'm very shocked by all of this." She scratches her head. "But what is your analysis of the entire conversation and her reaction?"

"I still can't believe she actually thought I was straight."

"I think it's normal" Jisoo lets out a sigh "I mean, you've only had relationships with men so far and it's not like you talk about being bi to anyone."

"I think you're right." It's my turn to let out a sigh.

"Have you ever taken any medicine for a headache? Is there anything I can do to help you?"

"No, I haven't taken anything yet, I was waiting for my crying spell to end" I pout "I wish you were here to hug me."

"I also wanted to be there to hug you and cuddle you until you calm down." Jisoo gives me a half smile "But I'm glad your mother wasn't homophobic and didn't say anything to offend you. It's good to see how much she loves you."

"I feel light, as if a weight has been lifted from my shoulders."

"Despite all the fear and worry, it feels good, right?"

"Yes, I didn't think it would be like that."

"It's the kind of thing that you can't explain, but I think you think that way because you were very afraid of your mother's reaction." I nod my head in agreement "Will she tell your cousins?"

"No, I don't think so, she said I should tell them."

"And you're going to do it?"

"No, their opinion is irrelevant to me." I take a deep breath and realize that my crying crisis has finally stopped. Jisoo remains silent, watching me. "What are you thinking?"

"Me?"

"Yes, Jisoo." I roll my eyes and she scratches her head.

"Nothing, I was admiring you."

"My face is all red and swollen, I feel terrible."

"I disagree, I think you're so cute, I wanted to shower you with kisses." she sighs and I roll my eyes again.

"You only say that because you're in love with me, but honestly, I'm not pretty right now."

"I don't care about your opinion, my opinion is the only one that matters" she sticks out her tongue at me "You look cute, adorable and beautiful, to me you always look beautiful."

"You're exaggerating."

"No, I'm not, I'm honest, I don't care if you don't believe" she shrugs "There is no ugly version of you for me."

"I'm not even going to argue with you."

"Yes, because you have no arguments."

"No, because you are very stubborn."

"And? You too." She looks at me with false irritation and I end up laughing.

"You are an idiot."

"Also."

"Also what?"

"I'm in love with you, but I'm also an idiot." the redhead smiles widely and I shake my head in denial.

"You're a little crazy, you know that?" I feel my cheeks blush and I look away.

"Why?"

"Because you're."

"Yes, I am everything you say and that's why we're getting married."

"What? Now?" I furrow my eyebrows in confusion.

"No, at some point in the future." Jisoo smiles as wide as possible and I can't help but smile along with her.