Predestined - JENSOO - ENGLISH VERSION

Chapter 26

Jisoo

I'm tired.

I'm totally in love with Jennie, I dare say that I even love her, even though I don't understand how that's possible and even though it scares me, but I'm tired.

Every week is a meaningless fight.

Every week there is some fight that ends up exhausting me on a psychological level that I never reached.

And now we are in another discussion. I'm starting to rethink this whole relationship and how healthy it is for both of us.

Jen: I don't know what to say, I feel terrible

🐰: All this is funny

🐰: Because last weekend you were worried about hurting me or making me feel bad

🐰: Now you are the one who feels terrible or bad about yourself quite often

🐰: I really don't know how healthy this is for you

🐰: And I don't want you to feel bad

Jen: But that's who I am!!!

Jen: I really care about who I like

🐰: Worrying is one thing

🐰: Feeling bad, terrible and all this pressure you put on yourself is another

🐰: It feels like I came into your life to accentuate this

🐰: Not good, Jennie

🐰: Even more so because you're in therapy and you said you're getting better, you know?

Jen: I don't see it that way, you brought me more benefits than bad things 

🐰: I can't see it that way, sorry, but if you say so, I'm trying to believe it

🐰: I just don't want it to become something toxic or vicious

Jen: Now if you've reached this level and you think it's nothing more than that, then we have a problem.

🐰: The question, in my point of view, is worrying if this point outside the curve lasts for too long or if it is too intense

🐰: I told you before, I don't know what's going on in your mind, I don't know the impact I have on your life or on you

🐰: I only know what you let me know and that only happens when you share things with me

🐰: I can see the negative things more clearly because it have impacts that go beyond what you demonstrate because it is something that I can have a greater perception of

🐰: It's one of the reasons I believe that most things are bad, because it have repercussions faster

🐰: Negative things are easier to notice than good things

Jen: But that's one of the things I've learned in therapy, is not to pay so much attention to the negative, even though it's hard sometimes, because I can control the impact that those things have on me.