Predestined - JENSOO - ENGLISH VERSION

Chapter 19

I never thought that my first call with Jennie would be for this reason: because there was a possibility that she would break up with me.

Honestly, I didn't even understand the reason for all the discussion that happened yesterday, I just know that I was mentally tired like I hadn't felt in a long time.

It's okay that I wanted us to call each other sometimes, but not to have serious conversations or to end the relationship.

I let out a sigh and feel my heart speed up like crazy as I type her number on the screen to make the call. This isn't how I wanted things to go, but it seems like being gay isn't that cool or that simple.

"Hello?"

"Hi, Jennie, how are you? How was your morning?"

"I slept poorly, I was thinking about our argument and my sleep was quite restless." she lets out a sigh "By some miracle, the teacher decided to release us early today, I got half the day off."

"That is good."

"And you?"

"Everything is fine here" I look at my free hand and think I'm shaking "So, you want to break up, is that it?" the silence that follows is painful enough to make me sure that the answer is yes and my heart seems to forget how to beat "Jennie?"

"I don't know." she just says that and it's my turn to sigh.

"Is that you saying or fear?"

"I don't know... I think it's fear." I think about her words and let out another sigh.

"I'm afraid too, not as much as you, but I understand a little of it." I bite my mouth as I think of the right words to use with the feline-eyed girl "Only there is one thing Jennie, I need that when these feelings or thoughts arise, you learn to analyze and reflect on them."

"What do you mean?"

"You say you know yourself well, right?"

"Yes."

"I need you to use your knowledge on yourself to know if the root of the thoughts are yours or if it is from fear, because if it is from fear, I need you to learn a way to deal with it without us getting so tired." I rub my forehead, which is starting to hurt "You can talk to me, you can tell me it's fear and what you're thinking about, so we can talk and clarify until the fear stops making sense, understand?"

"I think so." she sighs again "I don't know what happened yesterday, but I don't want to end it."

"Me neither... so are we agreed? Whenever you get scared or something, will you talk to me and we'll clarify everything until the fear stops making sense? I really don't know any other way to deal with this, it seems like the best way."

"I think it's good, let's try it like this. I need to hang up, my mom is calling me."

"Ok, bye."

I take a deep breath and close my eyes when the call ends. My head hurts and I don't even know why. I hope things get better from now on.

Soojoo: Today is chaotic

🐰: Don't tell me, I just got off a call with Jennie

🐰: I thought things were going to end

Soojoo: What happened?