Predestined - JENSOO - ENGLISH VERSION

Chapter 46

Jennie

I've lost count of how many times I've read and reread conversations with Jisoo in the last few weeks. It's such a mix of feelings that I still don't know exactly how to feel about this comeback.

In the first few days, I found it very, very strange that Jisoo had returned after so long, at the same time I felt my heart warmed by the simple fact that she appeared, but a year had already passed and I was already accepting everything that had happened.

After graduation and having to adapt to a new routine, new people, a totally new world, I think this helped me to digest the events better. Therapy really helped me identify my mistakes, even though I still feel a little defensive about admitting this, I know that Jisoo wasn't entirely to blame for everything that happened.

I was to blame. She was to blame, third parties also had their share and influence in all that chaos we experienced, but now everything seems so different and better.

Part of me is still suspicious, but that familiar feeling of having Jisoo present in my daily life doesn't seem to have been shaken. The way things flow so easily is something I will never understand how Jisoo can do.

The teenager in me, the one who kept sighing when watching romantic comedies and thinking if one day I would live that, if I would be able to live a romantic love story, I was rooting for Jisoo to come back, even if I didn't believe it would happen. 

So when she appeared, part of me was happy and part of me was suspicious, it could only be a joke or something. All I could think was: after a year, what could Jisoo want with me? It's been so long, why hasn't she moved on?

At the same time, I was also thinking about how nice it was to talk to her again.

Many conflicting thoughts in my mind, but despite so much confusion in my own head, I decided to really try and Jisoo is really showing herself to be a different person.

I still find it unbelievable that things are really going well after so long, that we're working out, even though we haven't gotten back together I feel the commitment between us stronger than when we were dating.

Every time I try to find a logical explanation for all of this, the less I can understand it. My therapist told me that I need to stop looking for a reason in everything that happens because not all events have a plausible explanation.

Soojoo: You and Jisoo don't tell me anything else about what happens

Soojoo: Is everything okay?

🐻: Yes

🐻: We don't say anything because we have nothing to complain about

🐻: At least not from me

🐻: I believe the same thing should happen with Jisoo

Soojoo: What do you mean?

🐻: That we only complain when there is something wrong

🐻: And it's okay

Soojoo: It doesn't make sense

Soojoo: How do you understand each other?

🐻: We talked

🐻: How do normal people do it?

Soojoo: Oh

🐻: I don't understand

Soojoo: It's just kind of unbelievable that everything seems so good now

Soojoo: In the past, you were always fighting

🐻: We were immature and impulsive

🐻: Now it's different

🐻: When something bothers me, I tell her directly

🐻: And Jisoo does the same, when there's something wrong, she tells me and we look for a way to solve it

🐻: Communication is the secret to good and healthy relationships

Soojoo: I'm glad you guys grew up

Soojoo: I'm proud to see you guys getting along well

Soojoo: I feel responsible for helping with all of this

I roll my eyes and lock the screen. Soojoo may have tried to help us, but if it weren't for Jisoo and I learning to communicate, nothing would be going so well. Soojoo has no responsibility for things going well.

It's been a few days since Jisoo mentioned to me that she hates the fact that Soojoo thinks she's responsible for Jisoo and I getting back together. If I remember correctly, Soojoo tried to talk to me and gave up trying to convince me.

We gave her too much power in the past and now she thinks she is responsible for anything.

My screen lights up and the phone is vibrating with Jisoo's name on the screen. She usually lets me know when she's going to call, has something happened? She had made me an emergency contact.

"Hey? I furrow my eyebrows while I wait for someone to answer me.

"Jen, hi! Are you busy?" Jisoo says calmly.

"Not now, did something happen?"

"Yes. No." she gets confused and I'm more confused than before "I was thinking..."

"Huhhh?" I say while trying to imagine what she is up to. "Did something happen or not?"

"No, but it could happen."

"What happened, Jisoo? Are you well?"

"Yeaaaaah..." she clears her throat and her tone has an unusual nervousness "I did something."

"What did you do? Did you get hurt?"

"I bought the ticket."

"What ticket, Jisoo?"

"To come see you" she says quickly and I almost don't understand what Jisoo just said.

"Are you serious?" my heart misses a beat when I hear the murmur of agreement. "When?"

"Next holiday, I mean, the holiday will only be here in my city, which means I won't be working. I'll go on friday and come back on monday, is that ok?" She looks so apprehensive.

"Jisoo, are you serious?" I say once again, trying to make sure it's not a prank.

"Yes, I mean, if it's okay with you and you're not going to work, I don't even know if you'll be free, I just found out about the holiday and bought it, but if you..."

"Jisoo, I'm going to be busy." I bite my mouth to hold back the laughter.

- Serious? Did you take any shifts? - I can even imagine her pouting.

"I didn't take any shifts, but I'll be busy with you." I say softly and I hear her laugh, making my heart beat faster.

"You almost scared me to death just now." I start laughing when I hear Jisoo.

"Sorry, I couldn't resist the joke" I shake my head in denial "But you can come, send me the correct dates and I'll book the hotel."

"Ok, Jen, I'll also send you my flight times."

"Okay."

"Okay, talk to you later." she hurries to say when the call ends and I stare at the screen with an idiotic smile on my face.