Predestined - JENSOO - ENGLISH VERSION

Chapter 33

Lisa

It's been two weeks since Jisoo broke up with Jennie and I don't think I've ever seen her so terrible.

Not only physically because of the deep dark circles and purple spots around the eyes, but mentally too.

It's pretty obvious that all she wanted was to make things work out with Jennie, but at the same time, Jisoo seems to no longer have the energy to live with so much fight and arguments for no reason.

What I still don't understand is how two people who like each other can make each other so bad. The two are completely toxic for each other and I don't know why Jisoo continues to insist on trying to maintain a friendship with Jennie, why does she have this need to have Jennie in her life when Jennie clearly doesn't want that?

I still believe that if they had been completely honest with each other and made a real effort, all of this would have been avoided, especially because they both have their lists of mistakes.

Jisoo made a mistake by not telling Jennie what she really wanted, she made a mistake by continuing to flirt with Miyeon even as a joke. I even read a conversation between the two of them in which Jennie asked about Miyeon and Jisoo just kept talking about other things, I found it completely strange because Jisoo already seemed to be planning to meet Miyeon and Jennie didn't seem to be completely aware of it.

But Jennie also made a mistake by not being honest with Jisoo. If her routine is already exhausting, she should understand that getting into a relationship that wasn't her priority wasn't right either. If she didn't have time or if she didn't want to dedicate herself, she shouldn't have asked Jisoo to be her girlfriend, especially if she had trouble trusting and showing how she feels.

And then there's the fact that Soojoo is in between the two. The relationship seemed more like a threesome than Jensoo. And Soojoo seemed to have a lot of power and influence over the two of them.

A truly passionate human being is capable of enduring unimaginable situations, even entering into a long-distance relationship. This type of relationship requires double or triple the effort, conversation and dedication from both parties, not just one of them.

Jennie blocked Jisoo on social media, I think even on the bank app if possible and they keep arguing in a very bad way.

Soojoo got it into Jisoo's head that she didn't do enough to keep her relationship with Jennie working and that it's her fault that everything collapsed, especially because Jennie believes that Jisoo cheated on her with Miyeon.

It's a real mess because Jisoo feels obliged to earn Jennie's forgiveness and make her ex stop hating her, but Jennie has already made it clear how spiteful she is because every time they argue, Jennie says things that hit Jisoo's weaknesses and insecurities that very few people know about.

In other words, she is not as holy or as victim as Jisoo defends Jennie to be.

The icing on the cake of this whole mess happened exactly a few hours ago.

I don't even know what really happened, all I know was that when I got home, Jisoo was having an anxiety attack because of some things Jennie had said to her and I thought Jisoo was going to die.

Jisoo has a level of anxiety that I believe is normal for a healthy human being who doesn't take anxiolytics and most of the time she is calm, so I was very surprised to see her crying and short of breath.

Her phone lights up with a call from Soojoo and I roll my eyes as I silence the call. I look at Jisoo who is still sleeping in the hospital bed and shake my head in denial.