Predestined - JENSOO - ENGLISH VERSION

Chpater 17

"So... are you dating?" Rosé says in an excited tone as soon as Lisa returns to our table with the drinks.

"Yep, a month." I smile and let out a sigh.

"A month of web dating and they don't have a date to meet." the Thai woman says in a reproachful tone.

"Why?" Rosé is looking at me like I'm crazy.

"Jennie doesn't have time." I scratch the back of my neck.

"And why don't you go to her then?" the blonde says as if it were simple.

"Jennie is finishing medical school, there are 3 or 4 months left before she finishes." I stare at the glass in front of me "And her schedule is crazy, I don't know if by going there, she would have time for me and I don't want to spend money for nothing, if you know what I mean."

"Explain crazy schedules."

"She doesn't have weekends or holidays because she has to work shifts at the hospital, for example, and when she's not there, she's at college taking classes or sleeping. Jennie doesn't have free time." I shake my head in denial "My the way, there's my work, they've been demanding more from me in person in the last few weeks and I don't know if my boss will let me travel."

"Do you at least call each other every day? Do you watch something together?" Rosé looks thoughtful.

"No." this time Lisa responds faster than me and Rosé seems even more surprised.

"Why not?"

"Because Jennie doesn't like phone calls."

"Jisoo, have you gone crazy?" the blonde tries to slap me and I dodge.

"What's wrong???"

"How are you going to maintain a relationship just via text message? How will this relationship be built and evolve in just this way?"

"I'm hopeful that when Jennie graduates, things will get better." I pout "I need to be patient and understanding with her."

"So you mean things are bad for you and you're waiting for them to miraculously get better?" Lisa arches one of her eyebrows and I bite my mouth in apprehension.

"That's not what I meant."

"What do you mean, Jisoo?" Lisa presses me and I run my hand over my face.

"I also think we should do these things, but Jennie doesn't like it and I don't want to pressure her. Her routine is exhausting, she is tired, and if I can be understanding and patient, why can't I do that? I just need to be patient, in a few months things will improve and then I'll be able to talk to her about it, but now, I can't keep demanding this kind of thing, I can't be something else in Jennie's life that she gets tired of."

"Why?" Rosé furrows her eyebrows.

"Because everything in her life already makes her tired, if I'm not some kind of refuge or something good, Jennie will break up with me because I'm consuming her too much and I don't want to break up. I really like her, you don't understand."

"You talk to Soojoo more on the phone than to your girlfriend, Jisoo, that's not right."

"Soojoo is just a friend, nothing more."

"She acts extremely possessive and controlling towards you, I doubt Jennie has ever done anything like that."

"Jennie is jealous, but she's not crazy, besides, she doesn't have time to care about it."

"What do you mean she doesn't have time to care about you? You're her girlfriend, by gosh, listen to what you're saying." Lisa always gets angry when we start talking about this.

"I don't know, Lisa, I don't talk to her about these things." I shake my head in denial "I just said that I can't demand anything from her."

"Wanting her to do the minimum for the relationship to work, being the one who asked you to be her girlfriend, is not demanding or demanding too much."

"With Jennie, there are certain things that I don't know how to talk to her about because I don't know if she will react well and I'm afraid of irritating her." simply out of nowhere I feel like crying and I take a deep breath, trying to stop the tears "It's complicated."

"Girlfriends should talk about whatever they want with their partners without so much tension, how are you going to resolve things if you're afraid to talk to her? She also can't get angry about everything." Rosé shakes my hand and I just nod.

"Everything is very wrong in this relationship." Lisa says finally and I remain silent.

After that, I end up deciding to go back home and let Chaelisa enjoy the love bubble they live in.

I throw myself on the bed and think about everything they said. Just thinking about upsetting Jennie and her getting tired of me makes me have an anxiety attack.

Mandu 🥟: How are things there?

🐰: Cool, I just got home

Mandu 🥟: You arrived early

🐰: I think we need to talk about something

Mandu 🥟: What happened?

🐰: I know you don't like calls, but don't you think we need to adopt this in our dating life?

Mandu 🥟: No

Mandu 🥟: Why?

🐰: Here's the thing...

🐰: Not liking calls from people you live with or see is one thing and I think it's normal for most people to hate it

🐰: But we have a long-distance relationship, there comes a time when just messages are not enough to resolve some things and I think that a call is one of the things that can bring us closer together

🐰: In this case, exclusively

Mandu 🥟: Okay? I think

Mandu 🥟: I'm not comfortable with phone calls

Mandu 🥟: I just call my mom

🐰: Can we call once a week to test?

Mandu 🥟: I'll think about it

🐰: Thank you

🐰: How was your day?

Mandu 🥟: Exhausting, I feel mentally tired, especially after this conversation

Mandu 🥟: I just need some time to think about it

Mandu 🥟: And you?

🐰: I'll leave you alone then, good night.