Predestined - JENSOO - ENGLISH VERSION

Chapter 20

🐰: You're not going to say anything about what I said?

Mandu 🥟: What do you want me to say?

🐰: I don't know, Jennie

🐰: I really thought you were going to give up

Mandu 🥟: I still feel weird

🐰: What?

Mandu 🥟: As if I had already given up.

I think if she had come here and punched me it would have hurt less than reading this. I feel my eyes burn and my breath catch in my throat. Even my heart seems to be hurting.

🐰: Oh

Mandu 🥟: That's the feeling I have now, because I feel ashamed of what happened

Mandu 🥟: And I'm embarrassed for looking so, I don't know, stupid?

Mandu 🥟: I don't know

🐰: Right

Mandu 🥟: Aren't you going to say anything else?

🐰: I feel like my heart has been broken into a thousand pieces

🐰: Just like glass when it breaks

Mandu 🥟: I just said how I'm feeling

Mandu 🥟: I'm embarrassed

🐰: There is a huge difference between shame and giving up

Mandu 🥟: I said this is the feeling

Mandu 🥟: And the cause of this feeling is shame

🐰: You once told me something that really stuck with me

🐰: You said you didn't know why, but you really felt like we could make it work

🐰: And I clung to it so much because I felt so safe in you when you told me that

🐰: But now at this exact moment, after reading the word give up, it seems like everything I tried and strived for was in vain

Mandu 🥟: Why do you think I'm avoiding this so much? I did not lie

🐰: Avoiding what, Jennie?

Mandu 🥟: I just feel terrible

Mandu 🥟: I'm avoiding ending everything

Mandu 🥟: You said I could be honest

🐰: You must be sincere

🐰: None of us here want to waste time fooling anyone

Mandu 🥟: So I'm saying how I feel

Mandu 🥟: See?

Mandu 🥟: Everything wrong

🐰: Do you want to break up?

🐰: You know what, I think you need a few more hours to think about everything that happened, assimilate and deal with