started as a lie

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it's a few months later and things are still hard. i definitely still love leah but things aren't improving.

we don't speak to each other and we barely make eye contact.

i stopped crying myself to sleep and i've kind of come to terms with it. though every so often i remember what could have been and get all upset again.

leah was my true love. my soulmate. and i've lost her. she doesn't want me back.

i just need to accept it and try to move on.

today i'm going to manchester to visit my family for the weekend.

"bye lots, i'll see you soon" i said walking out of the house.

"bye bye. drive safe" she said.

i started my long drive to manchester.

i stopped for lunch at kfc and then continued my journey.

i arrived at my childhood home at around 4pm.

"hi darling how are you" my mum said, hugging me tightly.

"i'm alright as i can be" i said.

she let me in the house and i brought my things in.

i sat with my dad and brother in the living room while mum cooked dinner.

"how's lotte" dad asked.

"she's good. she's been so helpful" i said.

"i'm glad to hear" he said.

we chatted for a while and then ate dinner.

we watched a movie and then went to bed.

leah's pov

i cant stop thinking about her. i've messed up so bad.

i need her back.

i cant live without her.

why did i care so much what everyone else thinks. her opinion is the only one that should matter to me.

i didn't know what to do. what if she doesn't even want me back anymore.

what if i'm too late.

i rang beth and asked her to come over.

"hi beth" i said, opening the door and letting her in.

we sat on the sofa together.

"i need some advice" i said.

"what's been happening leah?" she asked.

"it's about sophia. i cant stop thinking about her. i miss her so bad it physically hurts. i never wanted to break up with her in the first place. but i don't know if asking her to be mine again is too much. what if she doesn't want me back? what if she hates me for what i did to her?" i said.

"leah, i don't think she got over you. i don't think she ever will. but you should speak to her. your literally soulmates. it will probably be hard for both of you. she's going to need some time. give her the time, tell her you will wait for her. and wait for her. she's worth it. she definitely won't take you back instantly and she's going to want an explanation" she told me.

i nodded.

"yeah i'll speak to her tomorrow. thank you beth" i said.

i hugged her. i really needed that.

"anytime leah. and tell me how it goes yeah?" she said.

i nodded again.

"i've got to go but i'll speak to you soon" she said.

i showed her out and felt some peace in myself.

i'm going to speak to her tomorrow.

sophia's pov

the next day i woke up and went down for breakfast.

"morning mum" i yawned, sitting down at the table.

"morning soph" she said.

she cooked french toast and gave it to me.

"did you get a good sleep?" she asked.

"mhm. that was probably the best sleep i've had in a while" i said.

"that's good" she said.

after a while, ollie came down and said he has a game today.

"ooh i'll come" i said

i got ready and went with him to his game.

"good luck ol" i said and patted his back as he went to his team.

he plays for one of the local teams.

i stood and watched as his team came out and started the game.

they were playing really well. in the end of the first half, they were winning 3-1. ollie got a goal and an assist.

they played the second half and ollie got a second goal.

he got subbed off around 80 minutes.

when the final whistle blew, they shook hands with the other team.

ollie came to me.

"your not the only one that wins man of the match" he said, showing me the trophy.

"well done ollie" i said.

he got this things and we went home.

we went inside and mum asked how he did.

"our ollie got a brace, an assist and man of the match" i said proudly putting my arm around his shoulder.

"well done ol" she said.

"thanks" he smiled.

he went off to have a shower and then came back down.

we ate lunch and then me and mum went out shopping.

we didn't buy much. i got a couple of t-shirts and mum got a new pair of trainers.

we came home again and chilled on the sofa.

we ordered pizza for dinner and ate it while watching a film.

a while later, mum and dad went to bed. me and ollie put on another movie.

"do you want to go out?" ollie asked.

"what? now" i asked looking at the time. it's quite late. he nodded

"where" i asked.

"just for a walk. we can get dessert if you want, like when we were kids" he said.

"alright just let me get changed and we can go" i said.