November 4, 2033
I know you'll never read it;
"And I deserve it all.
I deserve the heartache that ripples through my body.
I deserve the way my breath catches in my throat and I feel like I'm going to pass out.
I deserve the way my stomach churns and I feel like I'm going to puke.
I deserve it all.
I deserve the harsh words and the reality check.
I deserve the cold shoulder that cuts my heart.
I deserve the way it feels like my world has stopped and it's never going to continue without you.
I fucking deserve it all.
I deserve the tears that streak down my faces in waves.
I deserve the urge to bash my head into the wall until I feel some other type of pain.
I deserve the agony that surges through my blood knowing I lost you.
I deserve being known as the most shit person on earth.
I deserve the regret that eats me.
I deserve to be punished by the world.
I deserve to never lay eyes, speak a word, or hear a thing from you again.
I deserve it all.
I fucking deserve it all."
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Chaotically Organized
PoetryWelcome to my chaotic mind, expressed in free verse poetry that just down right sucks, however it is the process of expression and finding myself. From healing, to pain, to falling down again, to hoping to find myself. Chaotically organized and sh...
