We've been together for so long
It has been so peaceful
The dates that we had and the love we have
I could tell tales of how it was beautiful
Just things have bothered me somehow
How my curiosity ate me up alive
About your past and what was beyond
We focused too much at the present
I forgot that before you met me, you once had your time
And so, these past few days,
I just learned about your ex
I happened to know about her
Not a coincidence, also unplanned
It was neat, it was smooth
There wasn't any war
But I can't say I'm happy
Nor am I angry or sad
Have I learned about her name
And what her face had to say
I got to know more than that
The curiosity weighed the same as hell
The same moment
I learned about her existence
Was merely the same time
I learned that she was like
...My copy paste
She loved summer dresses
Like how I do on my own
She also crochets, and has a puppy
All she could call her own
I could tell she was always happy
Smiling and jolly, for every little things she had
She was scared of thunderstorms
And hates fights-- just like me, my love
She despises winter
As it kills her grown garden
Just like what I have
She has always been so fond of the moon
and the stars....and the beauty of the night sky
She believes in wishing wells;
Deities and fairytales
The twinkle in her eyes mirrored mine
When I looked at my fantasy genre library the same time
She loved Sundays
Like what I've also bragged today and in the past
She was a sister, a daughter
and a wonderful person, I could say
She also plays the piano
And kept her own music booklet
She once played the flute
Heck, like I once did
And there was more than that,
I can recall and I can say
To enumerate it all while remaining strong,
That, I will fail
So much resemblance of her and me
I reflected her being,
her emotions,
her soul,
her.
And even with the fact that
We both are also the women you loved
The only different was that
She was your past and the present is I
But I just wondered, if ever,
When I was myself and was being me
Did all the things that I loved
While you're beside me,
I wondered, that whenever,
I played the piano and did my crochet
While you're resting in my arms
and I'm wearing my summer dress;
When I talked about the moon and the stars
When I introduced you my puppy
And the way I smiled,
And when you see me in my garden,
And being stuck in my library,
The way I talked about fairytales
And wishing wells, princesses and castles,
I wonder,
In any moment,
Did you love this part of me
Or was every moment you spent
While I shared my hopes and dreams
Were just moments of you having a glimpse of your past lady?
Tell me.
When you're with me, is it her that you see?
Because she was just like me
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Writer's Note:
Maybe, I remind you of her.
(The art displayed is by MadliArt.)
