How are you?
That's what I wanted to ask
It's been long enough
Maybe for me but not for you
It's only been a month, at least
Before I left you into this
Two weeks of shared happiness, cries, and playful nights
A month ago where it all began
I'm still afraid to find you
To see any signs of your name anywhere
To relapse any time I might find
And think of you every night as I close my eyes
I am yet still so scared of coming back
To yearn, to ask for one more night
To miss loving you, as if you knew
Even when I know it was already over
And I'm so sorry for lying, saying that I never loved you
When all I know is that you're someone worth of loving
And I won't come back because I can't ruin your solace
I'm afraid returning could only hurt you some more
I'm sorry you had met me
Forgive me for coming into your life when I'm not ready
I wish I was at my best self when I went there
I wish I had loved you when I wasn't broken
My mind's a mess
And my heart's living in a void
You deserve all the love and care in this world
Not a lost child to fix or raise and mold
Someone like you deserved so much better
Better like someone who's not me
You could laugh if you knew how I'm not capable of love
Farewell's my last gift because I can't hurt you
You can't get hurt
like the others did when they met me
Farewell's my last gift
I'm so sorry you met me
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Writer's Note:
From the drafts of your anti-romantic writer.
