One day,
I can now listen to love songs without remembering your name
One day,
I'll go to places and not remember where we were
A day will come when I'd see you again somewhere, then fine I'd still be
I'll be happy without wondering what if we are still, or long for what we used to be
One day,
I'll read books and series and won't see a glimpse of our shared memories
But see these as another tale from other people's stories
I won't drink my coffee and thought of the way you consumed yours in the past
I'll be able to enjoy the peaceful night and wouldn't wonder why we didn't last
Time will come
And I'd be able to eat foods and won't remember how many times I've told to eat yours too
You've starved yourself in the past, trying to aim high
As I wished to stay by your side, to hope for your greatest and to still be fine
Time will pass
and every time I'd encounter things such as
The meetings, black coats, and casual wears
People choosing sneakers over black leather shoes
Journalism, writing, and every little thing about books
Alternate universe, characters, angst plots and goodbyes
Seventeen, glasses, 11:30 at nighttime
The drunk texts, the baby talks, Rei and Ly
Anything purple, strolls around BGC and even Keroppi
I would only see places, things, clothes and people
I can only recall a name but forget a memory where it settled
To see just an animal, a time, an event, a book's title
To finally utter your name and feel nothing,
One day it wouldn't even matter at all
And the day will come that I no longer wish to see you again
I will no longer yearn for your presence
I'll no longer wait to see how this one ends
Nor have the time and interest to even comprehend
The once bitter alcohol will turn sweet
The numb feeling of being under rain will turn to bliss
that even with wetness and coldness
It'll be just like a good old childhood's treat
There'll be no more crying nights
and no more busy days about thinking about you and I
One day...one day
But Until then
Until just then
Let me drown in my thoughts about you
As I wished to be
Let me be devoured by words and phrases,
painfully sad love songs that strikes a memory
Let me fall deeper in this tragedy
To cry myself with so much hurt as I recall our story in everything that I read and see; novels, movies, series, and poetry
to see you in places, in different faces,
To shed every tear that drops until I become a mess
Let me put myself last and foolishly toned down
To think about your own lows and highs
Let me silently celebrate your achievements
While I just watch from afar
Let me bear all the pain until I can no longer feel
Let me, for the last time, love you until the end
Until I tire myself from doing so
Until we slowly fade in memory
Until then...
Until just then
One day, I'll be fine.
