You said it was a joke
But I know it was half meant
Outside the rain you let me soak
Even though your mouth uttered 'I'm still the best'
Even if your voice declared
'Forever, you'll hold me tight'
How strong winds made windows blow shattered
I know you don't mean it, I know it's a lie
I know you weren't happy
Wasn't really into living a life with me
It pained me to feel your coldness
And it hurts seeing how it pained you to hold my hand
I knew you weren't happy
I knew you denied everything out of pity
I knew how you loathe being with me
How cold you are, everything I can feel and see
The day I've finally summed up my courage
To let go of these feelings and draw a smile on your face
I wish everything is just genuine as before
I longed to see joy in your eyes even if it's not achieved by being with me
To your darkest of clouds,
I can no longer bare to see
I wanted to see the sun shine in your sky
That is why I set you free
And you cried that day,
I am very glad that you no longer had to pretend
You released the feelings of hatred and pity
Tears that showed how long you've wanted to tell me
I despised seeing the way those tears fell
And how relieved you are to finally let all go
So, I turned around walked away so far
Pretending to be strong, I shrugged it all off
Looking back, I was taken to the past
How I left you for our connection's misery not to last
Realizing too late what I did, I was taken aback
Too long to realize, your love being the problem was never was
I thought you were unhappy
Took me to a decision to leave thee
It's too late to know that you were only left by a family
And I also left you, in your world already full of storms and rainy
I want to come back and say sorry
To retrieve my once place, to regain what we lost
I want to return to the love we once built
Not until I saw you with someone else and already happy
No one was left to blame but me
And my actions that was driven from a great uncertainties
Now, not only I lost you but the love you gave me
I was left with nothing but regret and grief
As I sit here with my poems, I could only wish we lasted
I wish I could go back and choose you
I wish we never ended
Then maybe, there was still you and me in the end
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04-12-23 3:07 pm
Writer's note:
I wish you would love me again - V
- still, silent treatment that lasts for months ain't valid, though
Nah-ah. Learn to communicate with your love ones.
