Chasing the Wild Waves (Student Series #1)

Kabanata 43

Akala ko ay makakatulog ako pagkauwi ng bahay, pero hirap na hirap pala akong makatulog dahil sa maraming iniisip. Alas dos na ng umaga nang makatulog ako, kaya pagkagising ko ay puyat na puyat pa rin ako. Mabuti na lang at walang pasok dahil may program ang freshmen sa university buong araw kaya makakatulog pa 'ko mamayang hapon. I used to wake up early when I reached tertiary level. Palagi rin kasi ako umaalis ng bahay dahil palagi akong pumupunta sa condo ni Eyo, roon ako tumatambay.

I went to my vanity mirror and sat on the chair. I sighed and stared at my reflection in the mirror. I have noticed changes in me. Sa mga nagdaang taon ay marami na ang nagbago. Napansin ko rin ang pagtangkad ko, pero parang ganoon pa rin ang pangangatawan ko, kaso halata ang pag-mature nito. I am a better version of myself now. I decided to change myself because I know that it's for the better. I have learned my lesson. I have learned from the bad things I did in the past. If I had a time machine, I'd probably turn back the time and fix my mistakes in the past.

I recalled everything, and I can say that I am really, really bad. That's why I cannot blame other people for thinking poorly of me. I couldn't blame them if they're mad at me and thinking.. how could Ryder like me despite what I did to him? Despite my flaws, I am worse than what he thought.. I am worse than the most sinner person on this planet. I wonder how he is now. He never really left my mind. His presence had never been absent in my head. I wanted to know his whereabouts and how he was doing. How's his life now without me? Is it better?

"Miss?" Someone suddenly knocked on my door in between my thoughts.

"Get in," I said, enough for her to hear my voice.

Pumasok ang katulong na walang dala, kaya kumunot ang noo ko. I can see her reflection in the mirror, but it wasn't enough for me to see her clearly. Nilingon ko siya at wala nga siyang dalang tray o pagkain man lang para sa breakfast ko. Kinasanayan na kasi ng mga katulong na magdala na lang ng breakfast ko rito sa loob ng kuwarto ko. Nakakapagtaka lang ngayon.

"Where's my breakfast?" I asked the question inside my head. "Hindi kayo nakapagluto?"

She gulped. "U-Uh kasi, miss. Utos po nina ma'am at sir na pabain daw po kayo at sumabay raw po kayong kumain sa kanila."

I nodded. "Alright. Tell them that I'll be there for an hour. I'll just take a shower."

"Okay, po, miss..."

She left the room after that, so I decided to take a bath. I did what I usually do. After I took a bath, I prepared myself something to wear. Aalis kasi kaagad ako matapos akong kumain ng umagahan. Pupunta pa 'ko sa condo ni Eyo. I even texted him that I'd go to his place after I ate my breakfast. Kapag walang pasok kasi ay roon ako tumatambay para na rin mag-practice kami roon. Wala rin naman kasi akong kasama rito sa bahay dahil palaging wala sina mommy at daddy dahil may trabaho.

I wore my classy, above-the-knee gray dress and paired it with my Alexander McQueen shoes. Off-shoulder ang dress ko at medyo masikip iyon sa akin. Tiningnan ko ang repleksyon ko sa salamin. I love wearing fashionable clothes like this. Sinuot ko kaagad ang black choker ko bago ako naglagay ng makeup sa mukha ko. I just applied simple makeup to my face. Hindi na ako ganoon kahilig sa dark makeup dahil nagmumukhang over na iyon.

I yawned when I went out of my room. Pagkasara ko pa lang ng pinto ay sinalubong ako ng katulong namin. Namumula ang mukha niya ngayon. I weirdly looked at her. Sinuri niya ako ng tingin bago unti-unting sumilay ang ngisi sa kanyang labi.

"Huy si Ma'am Yuna, nagpaganda," she teased.

"What?" Kumunot ang noo ko sa kanya. "May pupuntahan ako ngayon, natural na magpaganda ako. What's wrong with you?"

Napatakip siya sa kanyang bibig. "Ay, oo nga pala, ma'am. Wala po pala kayong alam..."

"What? Ano'ng walang alam?"