Redemption - Konig x Reader

thirty five

I fell asleep fast that night. It was easy, as soon as my eyes closed i might as well have been asleep. I felt safe. I was encapsulated by it, feeling his warmth and having his presence there, i couldn't even describe it. I was shocked at first, when he offered me to come closer. I wouldn't have expected that from him, he was so stand-offish at times, but it was almost a break through between us. All the time spent apart, all that pent up tension and undescribed feelings we had- it faded the instant i was in his arms. My dreams were even better- nothing scary. I wasn't reliving any horrors while i slept, nothing plagued me at all, just normal happy dreams. It was like he fixed it all. He fixed everything for me.

Even all those months ago, he was who carried me out of that hell, who sat with me everyday as i tried to over come it- he even saved me when they came back. And now, he was doing it again. When i couldn't bring myself to crawl out this deep hole of depression, he showed up, despite the time spent a part. The time where he knew i was scared of him, the first instance of that since id known him. But i wasn't anymore. I think i finally understood it. He could be violent, but it was for good. Everything i saw last night was so far from violent, it hurt to picture feeling that way towards him again.

"Am i scaring you again?"

His words make me so scared to imagine how he might've felt. That i was feared him. After everything, that's how i saw him. Maybe it's a personification of my own trauma. Why i felt so strongly about it. Like a flip just switched- and that was that.

That wasn't it anymore. I wasn't scared. I think over anything else it was a longing now, a need for all the good and mushy things he made me feel.

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My eyes finally fluttered open, stinging from the bright sunlight cascading over my face. My eyelids felt heavy, blinking repeatedly to get used to the feeling of opening them again. I hadn't slept that well in a while.

I slowly sat up, letting out a yawn as i went to get out of a bed when i remembered- i wasn't alone in here. Except, i was. The place where König was just hours before, was empty. At first i thought i was going crazy, maybe i dreamt he was ever here, but the indent on the pillow he had behind him was evidence i wasn't. I frowned. The bed felt colder as i realized he was gone. He left in the night, or sometime in the morning. Either or, he left before i was up. I had told him he could of course- perhaps i should have expected that outcome more than i did.

I couldn't brush the slight disappointment i felt though, i had hoped he would still be here in the morning after all. What even would i do if he was? I'm not sure.

So maybe im glad he isn't.

I huffed, getting up and making my way out of the room, taking a minute to notice the new state of the rest of the apartment. How much tidier it was. The tv was turned off and two chairs fixed neatly in front of it, a blanket folded on top. Even the wine bottles that were in the kitchen were gone. He cleaned my apartment before he left. I didn't know whether to be grateful or embarrassed.

I wanted to text him at first, send a thank you- maybe use it to umbrella a lot under it- but i noticed a small piece of paper sitting on the kitchen counter.

Had to go- work call me in. I'm sorry, I'll try to be back soon.
-Konig

The note brought a small smile to lips. His hand writing was one was nice to see, a mix of neat and messy, the messy part sometimes overlapping rather heavily. Especially towards the end of each word. It brought a small warmth to me.

He didn't leave on his own accord. Work called, of course it did. It tended too. Maybe he would've stayed if it didn't, i would've woken up still cuddled into him. Maybe he wanted that too. Maybe i was going a little crazy thinking about it.

Sighing, i decided it was for the best. I had things to do anyways- my small little errands i had to run. Groceries, and maybe just getting out. I didn't do it often, only when needed. I didn't know the city out here, and quite frankly i wasn't keen on getting to.

I got dressed quickly, noticing it was already almost noon- god i slept in a lot. I threw on a normal pair of jeans, along with a thick hoodie. It was still winter in Germany, although we were almost past the cold season, the days were no different than in mid December. It often felt like it was freezing, mixed with the occasional fast winds. A part of me constantly prayed for spring to come.

I left the house soon after i got changed, grabbing my small keychain and leaving. It only held two keys on it, one for the apartment and one for the mailbox. I never got any mail though, so it always jingled untouched.

The apartment complex held long halls in between the different room, like a dorm or a hotel, giving me a walk towards the stair case that led down. Luckily, no neighbors were out. They usually weren't. I think i had only seen less than a hand full of people, but never the same person. It felt odd at times.

I started down the staircase when i reached it, it was long and went on straight before turning and twisting down. I threw my hood over my head- my shoes causing loud echoes on the tiles i quickly ran down- when i suddenly bumped into a hard shoulder. Fuck, of course i did.

"Oh!" I exclaimed, quickly looking up at the figure next to me, stopping in my path. "I'm sorry-" I started, but soon stopped.

"König?" I instead said.

It was indeed him. You couldn't mistake him, not from the looming height nor the mask. He looked little different than from when i last saw him, except now he had a black hoodie on over the tee. Jeez it must be cold today.

"Y/N!" He said, obviously shocked to see me. "W-what're you doing?"

"I could ask you the same." I laughed. "You chose a great time to come back." I said with playful sarcasm.

He laughed, shifting his feet and stuffing his hands into his pockets.

"Yeah.. I was just going to come over and see if you were awake yet." He said.

"Then maybe i should've slept in even later today." I joked. "But here i am, wide awake."

His eye crinkled as he smiled beneath his mask.

"Are you headed somewhere?" He asked.

"Yeah, i have to go grab some groceries or something for this week. Maybe take a walk."

He nodded slowly, his eyes shifting over me.

"Can i- come with?"

"You really don't need to, don't feel like you have to." I said. "I got it on my own! You could come back in a little, or wait for me upstairs. Here-" I lifted up the key ring. "I could just give you this for now."

König looked to the keys in my hand and laughed, pushing my hand back down.

"I'm okay." He said, amused. "I'd much rather join you."

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