My Ex's New Girlfriend (gxg)

Part 17

Overall, my co-workers were really great and kind to me when I lost my baby.

Everyone at work knew that I was pregnant, I was even starting to show.

When everything happened and I lost the baby, Tristan was the one to tell everyone at work.

I was more than grateful that I didn't have to do that.

That was only 8 months ago.

Back in the Winter, I was still pregnant at work.

I thought that Tristan and I were going to be family and raise our baby girl together.

Now, it was the next day after my Doctor's appointment, and I was getting ready for work, in my parent's bedroom, by myself.

Brandon had invited the group of us over to his house after work, and I decided to go. A drink sounded good to me.

Devin was also going to be at Brandon's, and he was going to bring Callum with him.

"I'm really happy for Devin," Brandon said to me at work, "Sometimes I can't believe that I didn't know he's gay. It should have been glaringly obvious to me, considering you and him are that close and you never fucked."

"Brandon, a guy and a girl can be close friends and not fuck, even if they're both attracted to the opposite gender. Take us, for example."

"Yeah, but you're like a sister to me," Brandon looked at me.

I gave him a look in response, and he said, "Alright, fine. You win."

I smiled at Brandon and laughed, "Ha. Thank you."

Brandon rolled his dark eyes and asked, "Do you think you'll swim tonight? No pressure."

"I'm honestly not sure...I don't think so."

"That's fine," Brandon said, "Just know that's always an option for you. Can I just say one thing, Cam?"

I nodded in response.

"No one is judging you the way you're judging yourself."

I looked at Brandon, "That was...surprisingly good advice."

"Hey, I can be serious and give good advice sometimes."

"I just have to get myself to believe that," I said to him.

I thought about what Brandon said for the rest of my shift, as well as when I got home before heading over to his house.

I wanted to swim, I really did. I wanted to join my co-workers and have fun in the pool and not even think about it.

I looked at myself in the mirror, wearing only my underwear and bra.

My body didn't look that much different than it did before I got pregnant, especially now that it had been months since I lost the baby, but I felt different. Even though I've always been thin, I've never had great body confidence. I have a small chest, B cups, and somewhat of an ass, but nothing too impressive.

I never feel like I'm good enough.

Fuck this. Brandon is right, no one will be judging me like I am myself.

I'm putting on a bikini under my clothes.

I chose a black bikini that I had that had high waisted bottoms, and the top, which did push up my chest nicely, tied in the back like a halter.

I'm giving myself the option to swim.

I made my way over to Brandon's, and as I was parking, Devin and Callum were as well.