Wife of the Cruel Billionaire | Tzukook (New)

CHAPTER 32

~Tzuyu's POV~

Wh... what did he just say? He... slept with me? My first time? My whole heart dropped cold and I felt dizzy. I... didn't... I didn't sleep with him. No! Why did he lie? My first time...I was just... wait... Wait... was it Taehyung? Was that man Taehyung? An unknown question popped into my mind when I thought about it.

My body trembled and I closed my eyes while my mind tried so hard to recall the man from that night. He was young and had a good-looking muscular body but... I didn't see his face. However, I just remember that... his voice was a little bit similar to Taehyung.

But... it was not that he slept with me. He just raped me while I was begging him not to. My heart raced inside of me with so many scary thoughts. I just couldn't believe that he said it so casually after raping me. Yes, it must be him! It should be him but 'how come? He was not here, he was abroad. I clutched the bathrobe tightly, failing to understand anything but the way he just said that he took my first time. It was so casual and simple. Did he know? Did he just recognize me when he was doing it to me? Is that why he's back to marry me?

While I was thinking about those things, I felt a chilly coldness around me. Then I realized that I am with Jungkook. Horror took over me, I slowly raised my head and looked at him. My heart trembled and my entire body began to shake. He was still staring at the entrance of the room without even blinking and his expression was so hard to read. Please... he was treating me well and I just don't want to lose it.

"Jungkook..."

I could barely part my lips to speak. I mumbled his name, making his body stiffen but he still didn't look at me. He just walked ahead as he shut the door and locked it. Then he turned to me. His eyes were reddened and his lips were bleeding from Taehyung's previous punch but I can swear he did more terrible damage to Taehyung than what he received from Taehyung. My heart ached. It's true that I'm scared right now but more than my fear, my heart ached seeing him bleeding because of me and looking at me as if he was still experiencing a great shock.

"Let me... check your lip"

I stepped near him with a crazily beating heart which was filled with fear and pain. As I moved my hand to touch his face, he slapped my hand away making tears jump out of my eyes. No! Please... don't do this to me. I don't want this coldness again. I want the warm-hearted man who he was. Ignoring the fact he pushed my hand away,l again tried to touch him but once again, I was brutally pushed away from him.

It's... it's happening. The thing I was afraid of was happening again. I covered my face with my palms not wanting to believe it. I don't want... Please god! Don't make him be the same angry Jungkook again. I'm scared and at the same time, I'm in love so it will definitely kill me this time if he continues to hurt me like he used to do. Jungkook took off his coat and threw it away. Then he continued stripping his clothes until he left with his pants. I didn't miss the way his strong shoulders moved due to his heavy breathing. Heavy breaths of anger.

I watched him standing there with bewilderment. I wanted to go near him and hug him so tightly but I was too afraid to do it since it could make him even angrier what I couldn't endure was this silence. And what I fear the most is also his silence. When he becomes silent, that means his fury has already spread everywhere through his veins and he will also not know what he will do next. My vision kept blurring as the tears came out of my eyes no matter how many times I wiped them off.

I just... I don't want to lose the gentle side of him. I just don't want to be treated badly. I wanted to explain to him that I was raped and I never slept with a man willingly. I was saving myself for him but I failed to protect him. I paced near him slowly. Coming behind him, I touched his hand, caressing his knuckles gently. Still, he did not react. He didn't even bother to look at me. My feelings are already hurt. I don't know how to tell him about the fact I was raped, I just only care about him. I want him to look at me and say something.