Finding Peace In The Missing Piece

Chapter 26 - The Dream

CHAPTER 26 - The Dream

After a years in college I finally graduated with flying colors, Summa Cum Laude. Mismong araw rin ng graduation ko sinagot si Harvey, we've been 4 years in a relationship now. While I'm studying at Law School he's been there for me being the best boyfriend in the world.

Akalain mo iyon? 4 years? Ganon kami katibay, wala kaming tinatago sa isa't isa, kahit mga past relationships namin, mga problema at kung ano-ano pa. Mas nakilala ko siya bilang kung sino siya at hindi kung ano ang meron siya. May mga pinag aawayan kaming ilang bagay tulad nong mga babae sa paligid niya, they're actually flirting! At ang manhid niya! Possessive din siya kung minsan pero all in all okay naman kami.

Nasa pilipinas na siya ngayon dahil doon na siya nagtatrabaho bilang doktor! We both graduated with flying colors that's why I'm so proud of us. Long distance relationship kami almost a month na rin and I'm preparing for the bar exam and next week na ako magta-take kaya pupunta siya dito sa france para samahan although I think it's not necessary naman and mas kailangan siya sa hospital but he really insist kaya wala akong magagawa, pinili ako eh.

Huyy!! Ang harot mo! Mag review ka na!

Nasa pilipinas na din si Kuya Dryx at nagtatrabaho sa isang construction company. Hindi ko alam kung bakit sa pilipinas pa siya nagtatrabaho eh ang daming offer sa kanya dito.

Si Daddy naman dito na talaga forever sa france magbibinata daw siya kuno niya, mainit daw sa pilipinas ayaw niyang magkaroon ng wrinkles.

Talking about my brother he is now a freaking CEO! Yess! True ito mga beshy ko! Pinursue niya talaga ang pagtatayo ng kumpanya niya. It's now a popular company named L&A Corporation. I'm also part of the company since I have a share and I really invest my money from modelling here. Malaking pera din ang naipon ko sa modelling at yun ang ginamit ko sa law school tuition ko, nag insist sina Daddy at Mommy pero kaya ko naman.

Secured talaga ako financially!

Ang iisipin ko lang muna sa ngayon ay kung paano pumasa sa bar exam.

Bumili rin ako ng sarili kong condo at dito na ako nag stay pagka-graduate ng college.

It's been so hard for me to survive alone.

Law school is tough. As a law student, you will spend countless hours learning cases that may or may not interest you. You will be called to recite in class whether or not you finished the reading assignments. You will not have as much time for parties and social events.

Tuwing natatawag ako sa recit at hindi ako satisfied na pakiramdam ko mali ang sagot ko palagi akong umuuwing luhaan. Alam mo yung pakiramdam na nag aral ka naman pero parang kulang? Maraming beses din akong nasigawan at napalabas. Funny. Don ko narealize na hindi porket mataas ang grado mo nung college ay ganon na din sa law school, ibang iba. Malaki ang pinagkaiba. You don't need to be smart all the time, you need to be brave and enthusiastic in every readings and in every class.

At my dining table, surrounded by stacks of law books and study materials written in French! Ito rin ang naging struggle ko, unang buklat ko ng mga libro french siya nakasulat! Kaya bago ako pumasok ng law school ay nag aral akong magsalita niyon.

I flips through pages, my brow furrowed in concentration as I prepares for the upcoming bar exam. Magagamit ko naman ang linag aralan ko dito sa linas pero sa gobyerno nga lang mismo ako magtatrabaho. Ayokong mainvolved sa bulok na sistema nila.

Despite the focus on my studies, my thoughts drift to my long-term career aspirations, particularly the idea of returning to work in the Philippines.

I need to ace this exam. But then what? Can I really transition back to practicing law in the Philippines?

My phone buzzes with a message notification, and I picks it up to see a reminder about my flight to Manila after the exam. As I stares at the screen, a mixture of excitement and uncertainty washes over me.

Is it realistic to think about working in the Philippines again? Will my experience in France be enough? Hindi ko muna din ito sinabi sa pamilya ko dahil supresa dapat ang paguwi ko.

I sighs, setting my phone down and returning my focus to my studies. Just then, there's a knock on her door, and Ivy  enters with a concerned expression.

Yeah, siya ang study buddy ko since wala si Harvey.

"Hey, Xena. Are you okay? You seem lost in thought."

I forced a smile. "I'm fine, Ivy. Just a bit overwhelmed with studying for the bar exam and thinking about the future."

"I get it. It's a big step. But you've come this far, Xena. You're going to crush that exam." She cheered me.

I nods, grateful for Ivy's encouragement, but the nagging doubts still linger in my mind.

"Thanks, Ivy. I hope you're right." I sighed.

"You've got this, Xena. And hey, once you're done with the exam, you can figure out your next move. Who knows? Maybe the Philippines is calling you back for a reason."

My eyes light up at Ivy's words, a spark of hope igniting within me.

"You might be onto something, Ivy. Maybe it's time to consider all my options." I optimistically said.

Naalala ko yung isa naming prof sinabi niya sa'kin na gumagaling daw pala ako kapag napapalabas huhu, sobrang saya ng puso ko nong araw na iyon. Nakakaiyak.

"Pahiram libro mo. Mas maganda kasi pagkaka-highlight mo eh." She said and grabbed my book.

"Papasa tayo!" Sabi ko.

"Oo, basta pahiramin mo akong reviewer mo."

"Uuwi ka pagkatapos ng bar?" Tanong ko.

"Probably. Isasampal ko sa pagmumukha ng mga kapitbahay namin na abogado na ako noh." She said and laughed like a witch.

Napailing na lang ako.

As Ivy leaves the room, I returns to my studies with renewed determination, the idea of returning to work in the Philippines no longer just a distant dream but a tangible possibility waiting to be explored.

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