Remembrance ; Levi

C. 25 | Forgot

Coughing, you rose from your bed. Warm sunlight filtered in from the window.

You looked to your side. Levi had already disappeared. 'Of course. What was I expecting?'

Rustling, you reached around- searching for your bunny.

'Where...where are you?' You thought, frustratedly. Finally- at last, you found him on the ground.

Fishing him out from the crack between the wall and the bed, you flung him into the air and he landed on your pillow.

As you carefully made your bed, you heard knocking at your door. "(Y/N)?"

'Levi.'

You opened the door, looking at him expectantly. "Yes?"

He looked at you. "You're sick."

"I'm perfectly healthy."

He touched your forehead.

"You're sick." He repeated.

You groaned. "It was just because I was working overtime. Erwin made me read his documents and help me with everything."

Levi turned his head to look down the hall. "What's for breakfast?" You asked, humorously. "What else could it be- besides soup and bread?" Levi returned.

You stared at him for a few minutes. "How dull," you sighed. You were about to close the door, when Levi leaned in, and rested his forehead against yours.

"Come on. If you don't wish to starve."

Frowning and blushing at the same time, you said to him, "I need to change." Levi stepped in the room at your words.

"I'll wait for you."

"Idiot! I need to change." You repeated. "You already said that. Hurry it up, then." Levi asked, closing his eyes. "I won't look."

"Pervert," you murmured, pulling your warm earlobe. But nevertheless, you stripped out of your pajamas, and changed into a white blouse- and slipped on your uniform.

Five minutes of silence had passed, when Levi spoke up again.

"Are you done yet?" He asked, impatiently. "I'm naked," you responded, fully clothed and pulling on your boots.

He removed his hands. "I see."

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You set your tray down at the table. As you tied up your hair, Mikasa spoke up. "You seem happier lately, (Y/N)."

You gave her a sly smile. "Really...?" Your hands returned to your food. As you sipped your soup, you almost coughed when Eren said, "did something happen?"

"You're tempting me to leave you children and sit with the adults, now." You said, calmly as you bit off another piece of your rock-hard bread.

"(Y/N)!!!!"

Your eyes widened, and you face-planted into your soup as someone came yelling and attacking you from behind.

As you lifted your face up, the soup dripping off your hair, an unpleasant aura rises around you as you stare at your 'assaulter'.

"Hanji..." You muttered, rising up from your seat. The whole hall was silent. She looks at you, before cheerfully clapping you on the back, and running away.

Sighing, you tuck your wet hair behind your ears. "Dammit, I just took a shower recently, too..." You were about to walk off, when Sasha spoke up.

"What about your food?"

You exhaled, and turned around. 'Stupid food. Why can't we just...eat grass.'

"Help yourselves. I have no appetite." You strolled out of the room, your heels clacking against the hard floor.

Pushing open the bathroom door, you didn't have a desire to take another shower. So instead, you ran the cold water, and dunked your head in.

Thankfully and disgustingly, the soup was all liquid- and contained no vegetables. You washed your face with the icy cold water, trying to avoid splashing your clothes.

You peered up, looking straight into your reflection's eyes. Dark and puffy eyes stared back at you, as you dried your face off, making it seem as if you had been crying.

You wanted to scream when you swore you saw red eyes in your reflection. "Stop..." You stumbled back, shaking your head.

The red, bloodshot eyes had disappeared, leaving a scared-looking girl in the reflection of the mirror. Chills rose on your back as you hurried out of the bathroom.

'Stupid. It was years ago. Who cares if you killed a guy when you were like- nine? Goddammit shut up, self. You're not making this any better.'

You crashed into Hana on your way back. She raised an eyebrow at your appearance. "Were you crying?" She softly asked, when you passed her without a second glance, and as she passed you.

Stopping in the middle of the hallway, you answered her back. "Do you really hate me?"

Raw silence hung in the air.

You turned around. "Do you really...hate me?" You could hear your strained voice. "S-shut up." Hana muttered.

You sighed, and beckoned her to follow you. "Can we talk in my room? I'd rather not make a ruckus out here..." You pleaded, softly.

Turning around and opening your room's door, a small smile tugged your lips when Hana followed you in.

You waited for her to speak as you settled on your bed, watching her carefully. "The memories that I've had...at training..."

"...They were real. My feelings and our friendship was real."

You let out a sigh of relief.

"But, as you grew closer to him...I started thinking to myself. 'Why aren't I by Levi's side?' And as the days passed...I came to hate you. Gradually."

You couldn't find anything to say.

"And so...Jin and I-"

You looked at her in confusion. "Who's Jin?"

A look of shock came over her, and she looked ghostly pale. "You don't remember him? You don't remember...Jin?"

With uneasiness in the air, you shifted uncomfortably. "I-is he...someone from training grou-"

"You don't remember- you actually don't remember him." She said, softly. "You don't..." She trailed off.

"Who is he? Who is Jin?" You asked.

She looked at you, her gaze a bit different. A bit more...soft. "Jin..." She shook her head. "Are you sure you don't remember anything related to Jin?"

You shook your head. "I'm sorry, I..." You bit your lip. "I don't recall anyone named Jin."