What Are You Doing? | M. Danielle x Reader

INSECURE

Narrator

It had been a few weeks since the bar fight incident and Danielle was starting to notice some things about Y/n.

For one, Y/n ate a lot more than usual. Y/n watched the same TV shows on repeat. Y/n drank a lot more than she initially thought...

Danielle understood why on most occasions but the more she paid attention...

The more she realized the signs she had overlooked.

- Danielle POV -

I had been so in love with Y/n over the last 2 years that I hadn't realized I was blind to a lot of things. A lot of things I often saw as just Y/n being cute because of their situation.

You could say I had not understood the gravity of things.

"You should stop eating if you're already full," I told Y/n after they asked for another plate of food.

"Nonsense, you made plenty of food for me to fill up. I should eat it while it's still warm. I do not want your efforts to go to waste!" Y/n gave me a wide smile.

I tightened my jaw knowing I wasn't going to be able to say the right thing in the moment but I did the best I could...

"You do not need to eat the food while it's warm. You can put it in the fridge and eat it later," I coldly answered.

Y/n's head dropped and I suddenly felt bad for how I responded.

I was doing my best to take care of Y/n knowing that I would be going back to school soon... but it seemed like perhaps I had been away for so long... that I no longer knew who Y/n was.

"Okay," Y/n stiffly got up from the dinner table.

I sighed and began to put everything away. I washed the dishes, made some dessert for later, and relaxed for a bit.

I had to be honest with myself that maybe Y/n asking me to live with them after I graduated felt a bit burdensome.

I think what felt more burdensome was the dark contrast between taking care of Haerin and taking care of Y/n.

Haerin was always so grateful and honest about my behavior toward her. Y/n was a bit more bitter about everything and acted as if they always had to do things alone.

"I'm leaving," I yelled as I finished up what I was doing.

"Okay!" Y/n yelled from the room.

I had started to feel uneasy about leaving Y/n alone. Every time I came back, I found soju and beer cans all around.

"Come say goodbye!" I requested.

It took a few minutes but Y/n eventually got up to see me out to my car.

As always, Y/n's behavior was unpredictable.

"Umm, can I kiss you goodbye?" Y/n asked.

We actually hadn't kissed since Y/n pissed me off for going to jail for reckless drunken behavior.

It wasn't so much that I was upset about Y/n behaving that way. It was more that I was upset at myself for misunderstanding the situation.

Olivia was right...

I hadn't been paying attention to the fact that Y/n was easier to read than most people.

"Sure," it felt like a kiss could maybe help us both feel better.

Y/n hesitated a bit but eventually stepped up to peck my lips. I didn't like that... so, I had to be the one to pull Y/n closer for an actual kiss...

A long, 'I love you', kiss.