Spring Moon

45

"Should we go with you?" The question thrown instantly made me look up from my shoes, furiously blinking as soon as I met Evelyn's concerned gaze down at me. She must have understood the meaning of my stare because afterwards, she added, "To make sure that you make the right decision?"

I sighed, stomping my feet on the ground as if I were testing my shoes and showing how unbothered I was with her concern.

"What is the right decision actually?" I questioned and Faye came into the view, looking flustered.

"Stop the act, Ivy," she said with arms crossed over her chest. "We know what is in your head."

Yes, they were correct. Whatever they were thinking right now was the same thing roaming inside my head. No need for further checking even though I hadn't told them because they were aware that Ivy and Kevin would be talking privately about their future.

Kevin had granted my request - to talk. But, he asked me to go to the river where we were playing yesterday because he would be there instead of staying around the accommodation.

Chanhee told me that Kevin had walked up there so early in the morning even before Sangyeon left with the other three because he wanted to catch the view of sunrise. I wondered if that was the truth because anything could be a reason other than that.

Perhaps... the air was tight last night in the boys' room?

Back to the current situation I was in, the number of eyes darted on me was now increasing - Chanhee and Jacob had joined. All of them really made me want to snort. It felt like I was watching Inside Out - they were the various types of feelings living in my head, and they were called up for a meeting to discuss how to control Ivy.

"I'm leaving..." I announced and started the first and second steps but halted at the third when Chanhee called my name.

Swiftly, I turned in his direction, masking myself with a grin.

"I never believe you but I believe Kevin," he said, and brows slightly furrowed. There was something about it that seemed too deep in meaning and I couldn't decipher it in one breath. "Just... listen to what Kevin wants to say. A discussion should be occupied by all parties not only one."

Weird enough.

Choi Chanhee could be wise - no doubt, but he wouldn't be it randomly if there was nothing to be a trigger. So what had triggered him?

Now, I was curious about what was happening last night in the boys' room.

However, contrary to the curiosity that had jerked up inside me, I outstretched another smile and swiftly saluted them as I walked backwards before I completely turned around and started running.

I hated running - especially in summer, but I needed to get away from them faster. Little did I know, my pace became slower and slower the farther I went and the closer I got to the river.

It was now nerve-wracking. To face Kevin and to start the discussion about us. For, I didn't have any backup plan for any consequence later. My mind had only one thing inside - to end this misery.

"You got this, Ivy," I breathed in deeply before I caught a glimpse of Kevin on the mat he placed near the river bank.

He looked super focused scribbling on his iPad and once in a while, he would draw a smile on his face. Nonetheless, contrary to the lovely sight I was seeing right now, I couldn't help remembering how mad he looked yesterday. Since it was the first time I saw him red, it wasn't easy to erase that certain memory from my head. I went to sleep last night with that face roaming around.