this time i'll get better

chapter 41: pictures

I would like to give so many thanks to the person who created pictures. Like the founder of the camera and anything that could capture the moment. Because of it, I get to reminisce of the things that I once experienced. I get to bring it wherever. Since my mind couldn't have kept that detailed moments, the pictures I took holds so many feelings. I remembered how I used to despise being in a photo. How I look so miserable and just not that good looking. But there pictures with people, that I somehow not just look good but I feel good too when I look at them. Pictures with my sisters, my friends, her. I like how in every one of them, my eyes were open, my smile was wide and my heart was all over the place. There were a few of them that I know deep down in my heart I would have given everything I got to go back to that moment. Perhaps, it's because that I was genuinely happy. I didn't had to fake my smile. Perhaps it was with the right people. The people that made me feel home. It is in the past. But it is never for sure that happiness couldn't be found again. Because in the end, it was what we felt at that moment. We feel happy then, maybe with the person we were with, but we were happy then. Surely, we would be happy again but in a different picture.