Naruto One Shots

Kakashi - Don't Understand 💕

AN: Contains topics about death and miscarriage

Word Count - 2599
Ages - 27 and 34

I looked at myself in the full length mirror. Disgusted with the naked image staring back at me. Pointless and stupid. My body wouldn't listen to me no matter how hard I fought it. The desire to kill ran so deep within my bones I could not control it.

"Baby what are you doing?" Strong arms snuck around my body from behind. My husband buried his face into the crook of my neck where he started kissing along the length of my shoulder and then up my neck.

I couldn't answer. My focus was locked on the pointless body in the mirror. "You need to be resting in bed." Kakashi whispered in my ear. Finally my eyes looked at the disheveled grey hair through the mirror.

"I can't lay there any longer." I spoke quietly. Regardless of how unsure I felt about myself my voice did not waiver. Again it was my body's will not to listen to me. If I were to show vulnerability in front of anyone it would be my husband. As much as I wanted to my body wouldn't listen to me.

"But it is the doctor's order baby. You need rest." Kakashi tried to pull my body towards the bed. My body not only wouldn't listen to me but wouldn't listen to Kakashi. My feet remained rooted in place.

"Don't call me that." I hissed out at him. My anger towards myself unintentionally was leashes on him.

"I'm sorry my love." Kakashi continued his kisses on the side of my face and neck. "Is that better my love." In all the time I had been with Kakashi he had never called me anything but baby.

"No." I snipped.

"Come back to bed princess." Kakashi kissed my temple as he tried a different pet name. "You need to rest." Kakashi once again tried to pull my body away from the mirror.

"No." I snapped again. This time shaking the hold he had on me. I turned to face him. "I can't fucking lay there anymore." I pointed to the bed. Tears brimmed my eyes. Emotions I could not even put into words consumed me.

"But it's what you need baby." He spoke out of habit.

"Don't fucking call me that!" I shouted at him. "I can't hear that damn word ever again." I cried. The tears I tried to hold back flooded my cheeks. My damn body once again not listening to me.

"I'm sorry princess. But please the doctor said you needed rest. You should not be out of bed."

"Are you not hearing me Kakashi?" My voice still loud as I spoke but it sounded drained in emotions. "I can't lay there!"

"Then where my love? Where do you want to rest?" I was silent as my emotions caved down on me. My mind was too bogged down to think straight. Everything crashed down against me. The only thing I thought to do was fight. But even now I couldn't lift a finger to the battle going on within me.

"Baby," Kakashi stepped towards me. "I'm sorry it was a slip. I hear you. I can't say that yet." Kakashi cupped my face in his hands and whipped my tears with his thumbs. I didn't know how I had the energy left to cry. I should have been cried out at this point.

"I don't know." I whined out as I leaned into his touch. Kakashi immediately wrapped his arms around me as my body lost all its fight. "I just can't." My voice cracked as I spoke.

"I understand." Kakashi kissed the crown of my head.

"No you don't." My voice was uncharacteristically weak. It sent a shiver down my spine at my disgust for how weak I had become.

"Then help me understand." Kakashi gave me another kiss on my head. One hand massage the back of my head as the other stroked up and down my bare spine. "I love you baby." I knew it was the only thing that he could think to say.