Parents

Guilt

"Come in." Lucy mumbled sleepily.

Angela walked into Lucy's room and sat on the end of her bed.

"Tim called me."

"Oh my god can I not be left alone?" Lucy rolled her eyes.

"He's just concerned about u, he is worried about how upset u seem all the time." Angela put her arm around Lucy.

"I don't care, I'm going to make dinner." Lucy got up, leaving Angela sat there.

Angela didn't know what to do, she so desperately wanted to help Lucy but Lucy clearly didn't want help. She followed Lucy to the kitchen.

"What u making?"

"Toast."

"Lucy please let us help u,"

"With what?" Lucy knew what Angela was on about but she didn't know what else to say.

"U used to be so happy and u was doing so much better and now everything seems to have gone downhill, what's going on?"

"I can't tell u.." Lucy muttered.

"Why not." Angela was so confused.

"U will hate me." Lucy said as she buttered her toast.

"Lucy I will never hate u, I may be mad or upset with u but never hate u."

"I don't want another child." Lucy avoided eye contact with Angela.

"Darling come here." Angela pulled Lucy into a hug.

"I feel so guilty about it and I don't know what I can do."

"Why don't u have that conversation with Tim and see what he thinks?" Angela suggested

"He's going to be so upset."

"He will understand Lucy, this pregnancy was sprung onto u at an already stressful time of ur life, so much is happening."

"I hope he doesn't get mad."

"Lucy, if he does then clearly he's not worth it."

Lucy just nodded. She didn't know what to do with herself seeing as she wasn't tired now, it was only 7pm.

"I think I'm going to go see him now."

"Lucy are u sure? U have just had a heated conversation with him over the phone."

"Angela I need to tell him now I cannot keep it in any longer."

"I'm coming with u then." Angela insisted.

"Why..?"

"In case anything happens obviously."

Angela went into the living room to let Wesley know where they were going,

"Ok see u later babe." Wesley hugged Angela.

"Right Luce get in the car."

They drove towards Tim's house, Lucy sat picking at her nails the whole journey. As she looked down she glanced at the tiny bump she hated so much.

The car stopped, Lucy looked up to see they had arrived. Her throat felt like it was closing in she was so anxious.

"U want me to come in Lu?" Angela asked rubbing Lucy on the back.

Lucy nodded.

Next thing she knew Tim had answered the door and they were all sat in his living room.

"What's going on?" He questioned.

Lucy looked at Angela as if wanting her to answer.

"Lucy has something to tell u but she's worried about how ur going to feel about it." Angela said to Tim

"Well what is it then?" Tim asked trying to act unbothered.

"I.. I don't want this baby anymore." A tear welled in Lucy's eyes.

"Ok.. so.. sorry I'm confused." Tim stared blankly at Lucy

"I don't want another kid, Tim."

"Why ?"

"So much is going on, I don't have enough time to look after myself let alone a whole baby."

"You wouldn't be alone Luce." Tim smiled.

"Tim, we argue constantly how can we raise a child to be happy when all they would be brought into is arguing. We don't even live together so I would be raising a baby alone."

"Lucy u can move in here."

"Tim ur missing the point, if I move in we are going to argue even more. I don't want this baby and I never did but I didn't have the heart to tell anyone."

The three sat in silence for what felt like hours, till Tim broke it.

"So what r u going to do?"

"I don't know I think it's too late for termination so I don't know.." Lucy put her head in her hands.

"I'll take u to the doctors tomorrow morning?" Tim asked.

"Alright I guess so then."

"That sounds like a good plan." Angela said trying to lighten the mood.

Lucy got up and gave Tim a hug, they stood in the middle of the room embraced in each others comfort.

"Lu we need to get home, I've got an early shift tomorrow."

"Ok, bye Tim."

"Bye Luce I'll pick u up at 8 tomorrow."