Parents

Hiding it

Lucy was still quite upset when they arrived back to Angela's, she felt bad she has put Bailey in even more of a bad mood but didn't know how to fix it. She kept thinking about what Tim was saying about her ignoring her own mental health the past few days.

Lucy went straight to her room to take her meds while Tim stood on the door step talking to Angela about what had happened,

"She needs to make sure she keeps putting her health first." Tim sighed.

"She really does, she just wants to help everyone and sometimes that's what causes her to get worse again,"

"Please can u try get her back to therapy, and maybe speak to Bailey because I'm not sure if Lu will,"

"Yeah I'll give Bailey a call once I've spoken to Lu, I'm so worried she's going to ruin her progress."

"She won't Ange, I feel like she just needs time away," Tim shrugged.

"U think she needs to be sectioned?" Angela had thought about this before.

"Well I was thinking more of a vacation." Tim laughed.

"Oh right, that's my bad." She smiled.

"If u want to go on vacation I'm more than happy to help with the kids."

"Thanks Tim, might actually take you up on that."

"I better head home but honestly I'm a pretty good baby sitter."

"Thank you, I can really tell your putting the work in for Luce,"

"Always."

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Later than evening Angela has spoken to Lucy more about what had happened and decided to call Bailey.

She sat on the furniture outside with her call of wine and dialled her number.

B- hey Angela are u ok?
A- hi Bailey, um I was just calling about what happened with Lucy.
B- has she not told u then?
A- she has but Bailey I know what she can be like and how sometimes she sees things differently to how they actually happened.
B- her and Celina were talking about how she was trying to annoy Tim so I just told her I don't understand why she goes mental when he gets annoyed but she provokes him.
A- did u use the word mental?
B- yeah why
A- I recon Lucys more upset about you using that to describe her than the actual argument.
B- oh really?
A- yeah since her diagnosis she hates the word, she says it makes her feel different and abnormal.
B- oh I didn't know that, I feel bad because I did kind of snap back at her. It's no excuse but me and John are going through some stuff right now.
A- there's no reason u would know, I have said to her she sometimes needs to explain things rather than just assuming but I guess that's still something she's working on.
B- I'm worried about her,
A- we all are.
B- I'm scared she's not getting better and that she's just hiding it more.
A- it's really hard because before her meds it was obvious she was struggling but now they dial down her reactions which makes it harder to recognise how she feels unless she says so or wants to show how she feels.
B- is she still going to therapy?
A- not for just over a week I think it is, it was just before she broke her hand. I was speaking to Tim about this when he dropped her home.
B- oh right, what's Tim think about how she seems?
A- he's worried too, suggested we go away on vacation. At first I thought he was getting at sending her to a mental health unit.
B- do u think she'd benefit from going to a unit?
A- she wouldn't go voluntarily, I'm honestly surprised she wasn't sectioned before.
B- yeah if I was her doctor I would've to be honest.
A- really?
B- yeah I've had patients before with less severe symptoms that I've had to section and I'm just a emt, if I didn't know her personally I would've sectioned her when I was called to her being locked in the bathroom.
A- I feel like we need to speak about this in person, we need to do what's best for her because if she is really just hiding her emotions she's eventually going to destruct.
B- I'm free all day tomorrow?
A- yeah that works, she's off so we could meet at the station and maybe talk with Nyla, Tim and Grey?
B- sounds like a plan, she's going to be mad at us for discussing her when she's not there.
A- it's all in her best interest genuinely.
B- I'll see you tomorrow morning, I'm going to message her apologising now.
A- see you tomorrow Bailey, thanks for ur help.