•Manipulation• [BNHA × Male!OC]

Chapter 100: One can only imagine Sisyphus happy.

I couldn't get what Denki said out of my head.

'they... liked me? As in like Kyo and Yuki liking Tohru? THAT KIND OF LIKE?!'

I didn't quite know what to say to that.

In fact I didn't know how to look at the two boys right now.

So I left my tray with Denki and headed back to my room on my own.

It wasn't that the thought had never crossed my mind.

They were both incredibly smart and capable heroes I admired, it didn't hurt that they were both easy on the eyes too.

A part of myself wanted to chalk up my ignorance of the situation to how busy I'd been recently, what with dealing with the LOV and government officials.

But as I lay on my bed, I slowly accepted that it wasn't that I hadn't realised their feelings towards me.

How Caramel's face would  flush a deep red every time we got just slightly too close.

How Peppermint had become so brazen with his compliments they were practically micro confessions at that point.

To be honest, I was ignoring their advances.

Not cause I didn't like them but because I liked them too much.

What would happen if I acknowledged either of their feelings? 

Then I would have to do something about it.

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What we had now would change forever.

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If I responded to either one of them, the other would get left behind.

It wouldn't be the same anymore.

And I didn't want that.

I suppose I was spoiled by both of their love.

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And I was a greedy man.

I didn't want to choose.

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Not to mention, becoming more than friends would mean I could no longer keep them at arms length.

We would have no excuse to keep our distance, our touches fleeting and eyes to ourselves.

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That intimacy scared me.

In another life I would have likely found solace in it.

But now, in this world where I had a million and one secrets to keep and people I had to lie to, it scared me.

Scared me to think that if we ever crossed that line, one day, out of nowhere, they'd find out something was wrong with me.

They'd find out the lies I'd been telling, secrets I'd been keeping.

And they'd hate me forever.

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I don't think I could live with that.

A knock at my door nearly startled me off my bed.

"Who is it?" I called out as I approached my door.

"It's me," a soft voice came from outside the door.

'Shoto...'

I felt bad leaving them back at the cafeteria without notice but I wasn't in the right mind to open the door now.