Zachary: Babe, answer your phone.
Fatima: I'm still sleeping, I'll call them back.
I listened out for Karter, I didn't hear any activity on the baby monitor. Zachary pulled me close to him and we both drifted back off.
About thirty minutes later I heard my phone buss and Zachary reaching over me to read it.
Zachary: Danni is here to get the baby.
Fatima: Ok, can you get him together then bring him to me. I need a few more minutes of rest
Zachary: Yeah, I be right back.
Danni: Hey brother in law, how is Tima? I been calling her all morning.
Zachary: She still sleep, I'm going to make sure she straight before she leaves. I gotta feed and change my boy then he's all yours. What yall got planned.
Danni: I'm taking them to a birthday party at the play park. I know today might be heavy, I don't want them feeling that.
Zachary: Thanks sis, yall good over there? You ok?
Danni: Yeah, I had to make him get up and face the day. He is irritated but I know he'll be ok after. I'm not so sure about her.
Zachary: Facts, she won't even come from under the covers. It's definitely about to be a long day.
I felt the sunshine beaming in my eyes as Danni pulled the comforter from my face.
Danni: Get up cupcake.
Fatima: Bro, why are you like this?
Danni: Because you love me, now get up.
Fatima: I'm up Daniella!
Danni: Good, are you going to be okay today?
Fatima: I really don't have a choice, where is Zachary with the baby.
I looked at the baby monitor and he was just finishing the diaper change. I called from the monitor for him to bring him and his clothes to me. I needed to feed him before he got dressed. He brought the baby to me before hurrying back out the room.
Fatima: He's being weird. When are you bringing him back.
Danni: Later, unless I see you at mom's later. If you feel up to it, no pressure.
Fatima: I'll be there.
Danni: Ok, I'm going to get going. I love you and I'm just a phone call away.
Fatima: I love you too sis. See yall later.
Zachary: Babe, get up. I ordered breakfast, come eat with me.
Fatima: Okay. Let me grab a quick shower. I'll meet you downstairs.
I had been holding my breath all morning. The truth is I had been awake for hours, my mind was racing and my anxiety was high. Once I was alone in the shower I let it all out. I cried and cried and cried some more until I got it all out. I tried to act like today didn't exist but here it is, in a few short hours I would be saying goodbye to the first love of my life. My daddy.
In a tearful haze I made my way over to Zachary who was sitting down in the livingroom. I sat on his lap and laid my head on his shoulder. He didn't say anything at first, he just cradled me as if I was Karters size.
Fatima: Babe.
Zachary: What do you need from me?
Fatima: Promise to hear me out and keep in mind I wouldn't ask you if I didn't really need you, especially in your condition.
