Destiel one shots

The Purest Kind

Jensen was jealous, he shouldn't be, Misha was laughing that's what he wants but he was jealous nonetheless.

He was jealous of the fact that he didn't make him laugh, he was jealous of the fact that Misha can laugh at anyone's jokes, but he can only laugh, like fully laugh at Misha's.

They were signing after their comic con, season 7 comic con, Misha was made series regular last year and more than anyone Jensen was happy.

But seeing Jared and Misha laugh at something they told each other, Jensen wanted to either stab himself or throw his brother far away, but he loved his brother a little too much for his liking.

Jensen signed quickly grumbling a little and left to the green room, Jared and Misha saw this and Jared excused himself following his brother.

"Jensen are you alright?", he asked catching up, "Yeah I'm fine", Jensen replied not turning to face him.

"Yeah try again brother", Jared replied snorting and Jensen turned his eyes full of pain and anger.

"What are you doing here?", Jensen asked masking his anger and changing the subject, "Misha sent me", Jared replied.

Ofc he did, Misha knew Jensen more than anyone else, like Cas knew Dean, even Danneel didn't know him that much.

"What's wrong Jen?", Jared asked his voice softening and bringing it back to subject, "I don't know, I... nothing", Jensen said going into the green room.

It was just the two of them, "Jen I'm not leaving till you tell me", Jared said, "I honestly don't know Jared, seeing Misha laughing, I should be happy, I should be laughing, but I want to literally kill myself just for the fact I am not the one making him laugh", Jensen rambled.

"Ever since he came to the show, ever since he came into my life I feel... when he is not with me, I feel..., when he makes me laugh I..., when I see him I want to run into his arms and hug and k..., but I don't want to do more than that, I want him to be with me all the time, I... he.... makes me... I..., I don't fucking know", he continued and looked at Jared.

He was hoping for Jared to look confused or disgusted, or anything along that line, but what he was met with was, a smile, an understanding smile.

"Why are you smiling like that?", he asked, "I'm- Congratulations you are last person to know this", Jared said.

"What?", Jensen asked more confused than ever, "Misha came to me a year ago saying the exact things that you find hard time saying, let me help you with your statements", Jared said sitting down.

"When he first came into your life, your heart felt at peace, for once your whole mind and soul felt at home, like it has finally found the right place and when he is not with you, you feel the physical ache, even if he is with you but not next to you, you feel as if you can't breath and your heart is crushing from being away from him. When he makes you laugh, even if it is not funny sometimes, you feel your whole body getting tickled, oh he loves making you laugh, after every joke he looks at you to see whether you are laughing, you are his top priority and you want to make him laugh too and Jen I haven't seen you laugh like that with anyone in your life, not even Danneel", Jared said pausing for a second and Jensen looked at him shocked.

Everything he said was true, that's what Jensen was feeling and he never thought Jared noticed it.

"When you see him after a day or week, you want to run into his arms, hug him, be hugged, kiss him like your life depends on that, but you never want to take it further, like sex, it's just kiss. And you want to be with him all the time, cuddling, comforting, laughing, cooking, you want to do all this together, you even want to wake up and sleep to his face. He makes you happy, at peace, and more importantly he makes you feel loved and at home", Jared said and Jensen felt his legs go weak and sat down on the chair breathing hard.

Everything Jared said was more than true, it was real now, all the feelings, "He...uhm... he told you that?", he asked and Jared walked towards Jensen and kneeled in front of him.

"He told me, he told Danneel and he told Vicky, I helped him figure what this is, we researched and it turns out what you two have is called love, not just any love, the purest form of love on Earth, on top of that you two are soulmates", Jared said.

"What?", Jensen asked, "Yeah, every human loves, but they have lust in them too, like for me and Gen, I love her more than anything in my life, but there is some part of lust in us, like - if I have to put it in numbers - 80% love and 20% lust kind of thing otherwise you won't like or have the want to sleep with each other, but you and Misha, what you two have is 100% pure love and that is beautiful Jen, so beautiful", he said.

"I mean he wants to give so much to you, happiness, love, laughter, warmth, and you know how much he has gone through, you have heard him talk in panels. Once I asked why he never told you about his childhood and the thing he said broke me, he told me that he can't see you sad and you also will try to cheer him up and you shouldn't do that for obligation, he is thinking that you don't like him. But when you make him laugh sometimes, I look at you and you look like he is your sun and moon", Jared said pausing and slowly tearing up.

"Do you know his childhood Jen? His parents were divorced when he was very young, he looked after his siblings, he didn't have money, sometimes they would starve, sometimes they would be homeless, his mother couldn't look after them well, he was bullied, teased, beaten up and he, he was in so much pain Jen... I... We can't even comprehend it Jensen, but he never broke once, and more than that, he loves you so much, that he doesn't even want to hurt you for fun", Jared said completely breaking down remembering everything Misha has said.

He suddenly felt two arms wrapping him tightly and Jensen sobbed hearing all the stories from Jared.

"I love him and I will protect him, I am going to talk to Danneel and Vicky, I am surprised they didn't tell me, but I will love him the way he deserves to be loved", Jensen promised and Jared smiled keeping his head on Jensen's lap as sad tears turned to happy tears as it trickled down his face.

Some love didn't need to be shouted. Some love was lived, quiet and deep — in glances, in shared air, in years of choosing each other again and again.