Best Friends (A Joe Sugg Fanfiction)

Chapter Twelve

EMILY'S POV

He was constantly looking at me and it was bugging me so badly was he ever going to laugh with me anymore or was he just going to be worried. I wanted us to joke again, I went to have a shower and ended up singing The Fray - You Found Me:

Lost and insecure, 

you found me, you found me.

Lying on the floor

Surrounded, surrounded...

I loved to sing but no one knew because I didn't have the confidence to sing, singing that song made me cry though. I couldn't help worrying that all the good times had now gone. I got out of the shower and put a towel around me before I sunk to the floor with my head in my hands. I didn't care about the time passing anymore. I just didn't care. I was sat on the floor for hours just thinking, trying my hardest to forget everything that was going on and to be happy but the memories made me sad. After two hours, I got up wiped my face and walked out of the bathroom like nothing had happened. No one was in the house. Joe had text me to tell me that he had taking Zoe to dinner. I put in a ready meal for myself because I was eating alone tonight...

I picked up Poppy and watched Marley & Me on the sofa, Poppy fell asleep and it was adorable so I took a photo and uploaded it to Twitter: @EmilyBrown: Quiet night alone with this one until she fell asleep :( ... Of course no one would bother to look at this photo or respond to it I mean I only had a few followers but I did get a reply from some random person. @Joe_Sugg_fangirl12: Stop asking for sympathy, grow up. I saw this comment and started to sob a little bit. This person didn't even know me so why did she hate on me so much. Poppy woke up and the sound of my crying so I placed her on the floor and walked to my room. I was starting to get so paranoid about everything. What if Joe went out with a fan and broke up with me. I don't know why but I started to feel depressed and scared. I got out a pair of scissors, I don't know why. I was about to put them to my skin when the door of my room opened. Someone ran over to me after seeing what was happening and cradled me like a baby, 'don't do that okay?' I heard a soft voice say to me it wasn't Joe though, it was Zoe. She was cradling me hugging me then she shouted, 'Joe, she's in here!' Joe walked in and saw me crying on the floor Zoe explained how she saw me and Joe ran over to me.

'Please don't ever do that to me okay?' he said and I felt a tear fall from his face to mine and it made me cry even more. I don't even know what made me want to do that but I never want to feel that way again. Joe lightly kissed me on the forehead even in front of Zoe, I don't think that Zoe cared seeing as I was in a state. When Joe asked me why I didn't reply because I couldn't explain but he stayed cradling me. He whispered in my ear so Zoe couldn't hear him, 'I'm here for you. I love you and you don't have to say it back but I needed to tell you' I started to cry again but this time it was happy tears. 'I love you too' I whispered back and he smiled so happily which made my heart melt. This was my happy place. An hour or two later I was back to my normal happy self, I had taken my tablets and Joe and Zoe had gone into the spare room to film a video. I had to call my boss now to tell him that I was unable to work for a couple of weeks. He didn't take the news well, in fact none of the three did, I now didn't have a job. Great, I was about to lose my house and all good things if I didn't get money together. I needed a loan quickly. I called the bank but they refused to give me a loan, what was I going to do. I didn't want to get involved in a loan shark because I didn't want to be in trouble.

I did the only thing I could think of doing, call Dylan. 'Hello?' his harsh voice said.

'H-hello... its-'

'Emily, I know, what do you want?' he asked quite harshly.

'I need to ask for a favour-' I asked scared.

'Meet me at Starbucks in 10 minutes then we will talk' he said sternly so I left a note for Joe telling him I had gone for coffee then I left. I walked to Starbucks because it wasn't far from my house then I walked in and sat there was Dylan. He stood up and invited me to sit down. 'So, what do you want?' he asked in his nasty but friendly voice. 'I need you to help me... I need some money and-' he gave me a confused look. I had tears forming in my eyes and he gave me a friendly look. 'Look, I will help you out because you look like you could do with the help but please let me take you for dinner tonight' I was a little shocked by his comment but I knew that if I didn't go then he wouldn't help me. I nodded and left to get ready. I put on a lace dress (see image) and I put my hair in a messy bun with some casual makeup with a burgundy coloured lipstick to match the dress Joe was still filming so I left another note saying that I had gone to dinner with a friend. I got in my car and drove to the restaurant that Dylan had said earlier. I arrived at The Wolseley restaurant in London and it looked really pretty I met Dylan and he was wearing a black suit. He kissed me on the hand as a friendly gesture I guess. 

We got to our table right next to the window, it was fairly romantic I would have to suggest this place to Joe. I ordered a French sort of dish and Dylan ordered an Italian dish, I had a white wine because I was now allowed to drink because I didn't need the tablets anymore and Dylan had a Cola. I only wanted the one glass because I was driving, when food came out it looked absolutely amazing. 'You look gorgeous' Dylan compliment which shocked me, don't worry I still remember what he had done to me. 'Erm, thanks' I stuttered and he giggled a little we were enjoying the food and Dylan was friendly which was nice. 'So, how's life for you?' I asked starting a conversation. 'Well, there's no lady but I have my eyes on someone' he winked at me to show what he meant, 'oh, well I'm-' before I could finish my sentence he leaned in a kissed me. Which I strangely returned and hated myself for it straight after. 'Look, Emily letting you go was the worst mistake I ever made and I love you'

'But... you used to hurt me until I bled or cried-'

'That was all a mistake, I'm better now give me another chance please' he begged.

'Look Dylan, that's sweet and all but I'm in love with someone and I can't forget what you did to me' at this point he looked really down and upset. 'I'm sorry' I said sympathetically and I got up and left. I couldn't tell Joe what had happened he would flip. It was going around in my head the whole drive home.