Best Friends (A Joe Sugg Fanfiction)

Chapter Twenty-Nine

JOE'S POV

I woke up the next day with the hangover to end all hangovers, I couldn't remember a thing and my head was killing. I looked at my Twitter to see more pictures of Felix and Emily, this was actually destroying me. I called Caspar, I needed a friend and he was back from South Africa so I could call him now. After a long conversation he invited me over to London to stay with him for a while so I could be around friends. One long train journey later I was in London. 

'Joe!' Caspar shouted through the crowd.

'Caspar!' I shouted back before he ran over to me and hugged me. He grabbed my bags and we went to his apartment. Surprisingly it was clean for Caspar I unpacked my bags and Caspar set up a game of Fifa he won 3 out of 3 games. We ordered a pizza and had a nice lads day it was brill but I couldn't get Emily off my mind. 

'Joe, she's moved on' Caspar said clearly realizing.

'I know' I said sadly, 'but I can't move on'

'you have too, I mean they are happy together and are on about moving in together and getting another dog...' 

'what?' I said even sadder.

'sorry man' Caspar said sadly.

EMILY'S POV

I finally recovered from the horrible dream, I loved Felix I knew that now. I was pretty sure that he was going to ask me to move in with him, he had been talking about it with me a lot recently. I knew we were moving really fast but why wait? I was still going through a none eating phase though, I wanted to feel happy in my body. I decided to go out for a run to relax for a while, I was running to the park when I saw his familiar face. Joe. I started to panic a lot and I couldn't control what was happening. My chest became all tight and I couldn't breathe properly after a little while I fell to the ground. 'OMG! Someone help!' a woman shouted running over to me. 'Okay, I need you to breathe slowly for me... deep, slow breaths' I couldn't stop breathing fast. I couldn't control what was happening.

'Em, it's me... Breathe slowly please for me' I heard the voice I hadn't heard in weeks. 'Please' he started sounding sadder and all I wanted to do was scream. My eyes started to close and I couldn't keep them open for much longer 'stay with me Em' I heard Joe say worried. I finally managed to control my breathing again and it started to sound normal again. 'Get away from me' I said as soon as I could speak and I started to walk backwards. 'Em! Please wait! Let me explain!' Joe shouted. I started to cry, 'leave me alone. I hate you'

'Please, don't say that' he said running after me.

'Why not?' I stopped running. 'All you do is get with me and hurt me. I hate you!' I repeated. 'You made me hurt so much, I will never forgive you. You almost killed me...' 

'What do you mean by that?' He asked angrily.

'If it wasn't for Jim, I wouldn't be here. That's all you need to know' I said tears falling down my cheeks.

'What's that supposed to mean?' he said sadly this time.

'I tried to kill myself because of you! There happy now?' I shouted angrily, I didn't care if people could hear me.

'W...what?' he said crying now.

'Joe, do yourself a favor and just leave...' I cried.

'I will go right now if you can look me in the eyes and tell me that you don't love me. If you can then I will walk out of your life right now and never bother you again' he said sadly.

'I...I' I stuttered I couldn't say I didn't love him. I just cried some more and now it started to rain heavily. 'Don't hate me for this' Joe said which confused me until he pulled me closer to him and kissed me in the rain. I returned the kiss and deepened it slightly rubbing my hands through his hair as his hands were on my waist. He pulled away and whispered in my ear, 'I love you' before kissing me again. We were soaking wet but none of that even mattered to me, I realized that I never had stopped loving him. 'I never stopped loving you' he whispered in my ear. I pulled away from him feeling really guilty for what had just happened. 'I'm with Felix now...' I started to cry, 'I miss you but...' I couldn't finish my sentence. 'Shh... it's okay' he said hugging me and running his fingers through my hair. 

'Meet me later behind your house' he winked before walking off. 

(Later on)

I knew this was so wrong but I had to see him again, I love him. Felix was in my house so this was really risky. He came to collect more food for Poppy with me which was sweet of him. 'Felix, I'm just taking out the trash...' I shouted to him and he replied, 'okay don't be long'. I walked out of the door and snuck around to the back of the house where Joe was waiting in his white t-shirt and ripped jeans. He looked amazing, I had missed him so much. I ran over to him, hair flowing in the wind and leaped into his arms. He put me down because we heard someone walking towards us. 'Hello?' I said a little scared. 'Emily?' I knew now that the voice was Felix. 'What are you doing here... and with him?' he asked sadly. 'Felix...' I said sadly.

'Please, no...' he started to cry a little which was really rare for Felix. 'Emily... Do you love him?' he asked putting me on the spot. 'I-I-I...' I stuttered unable to speak because I did love him. 'Then you've made your choice...' he said before turning away and walking off crying. 

'Felix! Wait!' I called after him. I ran towards him but he was already in his car and leaving. Joe ran to me and hugged me, 'I'm sorry he found out that way...' he said a little guilty. I didn't speak, I couldn't speak. What do you say? What can you say? 

'I'm just gonna go...' I said to Joe before placing a small kiss on his cheek. I wasn't sure at this point if I would see Joe again. I guess we will just have to wait and see.