Best Friends (A Joe Sugg Fanfiction)

Chapter Thirty-Six

EMILY'S POV

Zoe arrived and the minuted we hugged I broke down, she didn't say anything so I couldn't tell if she was mad with me or if she just didn't know what to say. We finally sat down and I told her about the girl that Joe had slept with and then I showed her the texts that I had got from the unknown number. She was shocked and very sympathetic with me, 'what should I do Zo?' I asked.

'I don't know Em, Joe's pretty upset right now' 

'oh god I've fucked up big time haven't I?' I said bursting into floods of tears to which Zoe put her arm around me, 'I will stay with you here for a while' she whispered. I just nodded and cried on her shoulder. I didn't know what to do Joe wouldn't speak to me if I tried to speak to him after all who blames him. I didn't even let him explain.

I went to my bedroom to be alone for a while where I saw a picture of me holding Oscar which I had on my bedside table. He looked so cute and I longed to see him again but I couldn't then I remembered what the person sending the texts had said and it made me cry. I just wanted to end it all here. But I knew that I couldn't.

Stupidly I decided to text Joe hoping and longing for a reply:

Emily: Joe, I need to speak with you please reply, I'm sorry.

Weirdly he did reply.

Joe: We are done remember? You meant it this time. Goodbye Em.

Emily: Joe, I'm sorry please let me explain...

Joe: Goodbye Em.

I got a reply from him at least but it wasn't the reply that I wanted to get. I stayed awake just looking through old texts and pictures of us both for the whole night. The next morning I got up early and went for a run. I just ran and ran it was the only way I could take my mind off things. When I eventually got home Zoe wasn't in she was probably visiting Joe so I ran to the bathroom and put my finger down my throat causing me to vomit. 

(A few weeks later)

It was Jim and Tanya's wedding day today and I was excited for them, Tanya had asked me to be bridesmaid and I was wearing a perfect baby pink dress which had to be taken in several times because even a size 6 dress was too big for me now. I had my hair and makeup done before slipping on my dress and shoes Tanya came down the stairs in a beautiful white dress with a really long veil, she looked perfect. I ended up tearing up a little bit because I was so proud of my best friend. The car arrived and we headed to the lovely outdoor venue.

All of her YouTube friends were there looking really nice in their suits and dresses. I was walking behind Tanya down the aisle and looked around to smile to everyone, that's when I saw him. He looked amazing in his blue suit sitting next to Alfie, Marcus and of course Caspar. His hair was styled perfectly and he looked perfect. I continued walking down the aisle looking at him when he moved his eyes to meet mine causing me to turn my head away quickly. Tanya met Jim at the end of the aisle and I went to sit down because I felt really dizzy after walking down the aisle. 

The ceremony ended and I ran up to Jim and gave him a massive hug along with Tanya. I then went around to say hello to everyone avoiding Joe though. I tried my hardest to avoid him and it was killing me so I walked to the indoor part of the venue and hid away from everyone for a while. I had a few tears falling down my cheeks and was about to walk to the toilets when I heard his voice behind me, 'Em?' I turned around and confirmed that it was Joe.

'Joe...' I said sadder now than I was before.

'I hardly recognized you! You look nice' he said awkwardly.

'So do you' I said ignoring the first part. I stood up and went to walk around him so I could try to avoid him again, 'Em why are you avoiding me?' he asked shocked.

'I...I...Because it's hard to see you' I stuttered. I walked towards the door when I felt him grab my hand. 'It's hard to see you too' he laughed as he grabbed me around the waist and leaned in to kiss me. I immediately kissed him back so passionately, I have missed him so so much. 'I'm sorry' I said tears falling from my face, 'it's alright, Zoe explained everything' he said kissing me down the neck. I pulled away slightly, 'Joe... I hurt you and that's not okay' then I ran away from him and out of the door to the car park. I now had more tears falling down my cheeks as I fell to the floor and everything went black.

JOE'S POV

'Joe... I hurt you and that's not okay' she said as she pulled away and ran. I couldn't lose her again not this time. I had missed her so much and kissing her made me realize just how much I actually loved her. I ran after her I ran onto the car park where I saw her lying on the concrete. I ran over to her and saw blood pouring from a cut on her head she must have hit it when she fell. I felt for a pulse and I couldn't really feel one I tried to give her CPR but her clothes were stopping me from pushing well on her chest so quickly I ripped her dress open at the front and that's when I really noticed why she looked so different.

Each bone was clearly defined and you could see each one. Her body looked so fragile and it worried me. She was literally skin and bones I started to give her CPR and that was when I finally felt a pulse but she was still unconscious. I got in my car and put her on the back seat of course I made sure she couldn't fall off the seat. I drove us to the closest hospital where I put my jacket on her to cover up her bra because of the ripped dress. I carried her bridal style into the hospital where I ran to the reception desk and asked for help. Doctors rushed out and took her from me I was made to wait in the waiting room but I could see what they were doing from the window so I looked in.

'Hello Sir' a doctor finally came out and said to me. 'We are going to stitch up her head and wait until she comes round because she is still very weak but we are sure that she has an eating disorder and it has made her so ill that it's hospitalized her' he sounded sympathetic and kind but that wasn't enough to stop me from being worried about her. I walked in to see her and grabbed her hand. 'I love you Em so don't you dare leave me' as I said this she started to murmur before slowly opening her eyes, 'Em!' I shouted happily before kissing her on the lips which she returned but then weakly pushed me away. 'I don't want to hurt you again' she said tears forming in her eyes.

'Em, you won't I promise now come here and don't be silly' I said pulling her into my chest, 'but you have to stop doing this to yourself because that is hurting me' I said kissing her on the forehead. 

'I'm sorry' she cried.