Best Friends (A Joe Sugg Fanfiction)

Chapter Sixty-Six

Even though things weren't official with Blake I knew they would be soon after all we had spent so much time together and it was amazing. Today was the day when my babies were coming home and I had missed them so much. I decided to vlog a lot more recently and today was a great vlog. 'Hello guys! Today I am going to pick up my babies who I've missed so so much it's weird not having a messy and noisy house but later today that will be back to normal' I said into my vlogging camera before I got dressed and put on some makeup. I vlogged a little bit of me showing my outfit of the day and makeup etc. I got in my car and Blake had gone home so the kids didn't get confused and headed to the Jaspar household well actually its more like the Jasbellar household and that was cringy as hell!

After driving for what seemed like forever I finally arrived at the same London spot that Joe lived in.

I knocked on the door and Joe answered, 'hey are the kids ready?' I asked putting on a fake smile.

'Yes Bella's just getting them sorted' he smiled back.

'Oh... right' I said a little sadly it was like she had taken over my job. 'Do you mind if I bring a plus one to the wedding?' I asked after a moment of silence.

'No that's fine' he smiled at me as if he was pushing the knife into my chest further in. I fake smiled again as Rose walked out of the house, 'did my baby girl enjoy herself?' I asked hugging her tightly because I missed her so much. 'Yes! Auntie Bella is amazing! Can we stay here more often Mummy?!' She shouted excitedly to which Bella appeared and started laughing. Did my kids like her more than me? 'Let's leave Daddy and Bella to get on with the rest of the day' I said quickly as I took Jack from Bella's arms. I rushed into the car and quickly drove off. I say that I drove off but really I just drove around the corner and cried.

'Mummy why are you sad?' Rose said sweetly at me.

'No reason darling don't about it' I turned around and smiled weakly at her. At that moment Jack started screaming and crying. 'What's wrong Jack?' I asked him as I tried to comfort him and get him to stop. 'Bwear' he cried.

'You left your bear?' I asked him and said yes. 'It's alright come with Mummy and we will go and get it okay?' He stopped crying as much although he was still crying a little bit. 'Rose are you coming or staying in the car?' Of course she wanted to come along. I picked up Jack and hugged him as a held Rose's hand with my free hand. We walked back to Joe's apartment and Rose knocked on the door, Joe answered straight away. 'Hey' I said a tone of sadness in my voice.

'Hey, what are you doing back?' he asked.

'Jack left his bear and as you can see we couldn't leave without it' I hugged him again and Joe shouted for Bella. 'Bella! Can you take the kids to find Jack's bear for me' and she said that was okay so the kids went to Bella as Joe stepped out onto the streets with me and shut the door behind me. 'What's wrong Emily?' he asked out of the blue.

'N-nothing' I said almost crying again trying to avoid talking about this especially with him.

'Come on Em cut the crap. I've known you for about 20 years and you're telling me that nothings wrong when I can see there is something up'. We ended up walking around to a park where we sat on a bench. 'Tell me Em' Joe added as we sat down and I couldn't hold in the tears any more and I just started to cry. 'Hey... hey don't cry come on' Joe whispered softly to me as he pulled me in for a hug. I cried on his shoulder until replying. 'I wished I could go back... You're gone. Really gone and it's all my fault...' I cried some more and Joe just listened to what I had to say.

'I saw your video Em...' he finally replied 'it broke my heart to see you crying like that and all I wanted to do was comfort you and tell you that you hadn't lost me because you haven't, I'm still here I've not gone anywhere. I've just...moved on' He started to get upset. 'Best friends no matter what happens remember?'

'But Joe don't you see? I want to be more than best friends and I had that until I threw it away... I've tried to move on but I can't all I think about is you and it's killing me. I had to let you have the kids for a while because I was so scared that I would do something stupid. You were the thing that kept me going when I needed someone but I lost you and now I am going to hate myself for the rest of your life seeing you smiling again with a girl that you love is great but on the inside it hurts so much. Even the kids love her slightly more than they love me... I feel like giving up'

'Don't say that okay? Don't give up and you're the best mum ever don't you forget that? Not even for a second those kids. Our kids love you more than anything, more than Frozen and teddy bears and they love those things a lot!' Joe said sternly which made me giggle a little and there it came again. The spark.