Best Friends (A Joe Sugg Fanfiction)

Chapter Thirty-Three

JOE'S POV

I couldn't help it the words just slipped out of my mouth as soon as I realized I wanted to take them back but I couldn't it was too late. Hearing her say she hated me over and over again broke me a little inside but I couldn't say anything I was frozen. I just watched her walk away the last thing she said to me was that she never wanted to see me again and I just let all of this happen. I stepped back in the house and my dad gave me a sympathetic look. I hated myself for saying it but it just slipped out, I tried to call her but it went straight to voicemail. I text her too but obviously got no reply, I was so angry with myself. Why did I always fuck up?! I just wanted to hug her and apologize but she wasn't here anymore. My phone started to ring. 

'Mr Sugg?' the voice on the other end said. 

'Yes? Who's this?' I asked a little worried.

'This is Dr. Bailey, we have Emily Brown here. We assumed you were her closest relative or friend because you kept calling her'

'Why is she in hospital?' I stuttered trying to hold back the tears.

'She drove her car into a tree, we are unsure if she will make it yet she is very unstable' when he said this I did just broke down. I hung up and got in my car. I arrived at the hospital that the Doctor had told me to go to and asked at the reception where Emily was. They pointed to a side room and I walked into it she looked terrible, her face was all cut and covered in blood and she had a black eye. 'I'm sorry Em' I said crying, 'I love you and I didn't mean it. Why did you do this Em?' I knew she wouldn't reply but maybe she was listening to me. Even when I grabbed her hand and kissed her on the forehead she didn't move and it was slowly breaking me apart.

'Please Em, just reply to me. I love you!' I cried while holding her hand. She didn't respond. I slept in the room for days but still each day I never got a response from her. Doctors came in and out of the room but never spoke to me. My eyes were red and sore from crying but I didn't care because I wanted to be here when she woke up.

EMILY'S POV

I was heading back to London tears streaming down my cheeks I couldn't believe that Joe had said that after everything we had gone through with Oscar. It was tearing me apart, I was driving down the road when a little girl ran into the road I quickly swerved out of the way and managed to avoid hitting the little girl. In my sights I could see a tree that I was heading straight for and then with a bang I hit it and everything went black. 

JOE'S POV

(A few days later)

I was still by her side not getting a response from her I was starting to give up hope when I felt her moving her fingers. 'Em?' I said a little happier. She made a noise that was a mixture of pain and a stretch. 'Em thank God you're okay!' I said smiling that was when she looked at me.

'Get away from me' she said.

'Em please-' I said tears coming to my eyes.

'I said leave me alone, I never want to see you again' now she had started to cry.

'Why? Why did you try to kill yourself?' I asked out of the blue.

'You think I tried to kill myself?!' she said a little bit of anger in her voice.

'Well why else would you drive into a tree?' 

'I had to avoid this girl who walked into the road' she replied crying.

'Come on Em, tell the truth' I said.

'I can't believe you're calling me a liar after everything Joe Sugg!' she cried.

I tried to apologize, 'I'm sorry for this Em, I'm so sorry. I feel so broke inside'.

'Just get out. Please...' she started to cry, 'don't you think that I'm broke inside? Not being able to see my baby boy or hear his laugh! I would have loved to see his eyes and to teach him to walk and do all of the stuff that a mum should with there baby! But no, I wasn't able to do that and all you tell me is that he's been dead for a year. I wasn't ready for a baby yet and when I tried to explain that to you all that you did was flip and you know something. It killed me to do it too but I had to do it for the baby's sake because I wouldn't be able to look after it well. You didn't even let me explain. Just get out Joe, please' she started to cry and I didn't know what to do, I didn't want to leave but she was getting distressed.

'I love you' I said and then I left the room, I wanted her to reply but she didn't. I sat down in the waiting room and stayed there not wanting to leave the hospital in-case something happened.

EMILY'S POV

'I love you' was the last thing Joe said before he left and I wanted to reply, I really did but I couldn't. I just let out a little cry before Dr. Bailey walked in. 'Hello Emily' he said kindly.

'Is it good news Doctor?' I asked a little worried.

'I'm afraid not Emily' he said a sad look on his face which killed me a little inside.

'What's wrong with me doctor?' 

'Well, I'm afraid that you are unable to have a child, the crash caused you to slam your stomach into the steering wheel and it damaged one of your ovaries. I'm so sorry Emily' he left the room and I just started to scream. I could never have a baby? I would never get to be a mum, never have someone calling me mummy or getting me mother's day cards. I must have been screaming pretty loudly because next thing I knew Joe's familiar face ran into my room. 'Em? What's wrong?' he said before sitting on my bed and cradling me like a baby. I allowed him to hug me this time and I continued to scream into his chest.

He wiped away some of my tears with his hands but more continued to fall. 'Em talk to me please' he said still cradling me. 'Joe... I fucked up' I said in-between sobs. 'I can't have children anymore and I just got rid of the one chance that I had...' I started to cry more.

'Em you didn't know this was going to happen it's not your fault' he said trying to cheer me up.

'I don't want to be here anymore Joe, I can't handle this anymore. I may as well die now' I cried into his chest. 'Please don't say that Em, I love and need you' he said crying a little bit. 

'I love you too Joe, God I've been so stupid'