Best Friends (A Joe Sugg Fanfiction)

Chapter Fifty

It was the day of the funeral and Joe still had no idea. I wore a floaty skater styled plain black dress with black suede high heels, an infinity necklace and love heart stud earrings. I kept my makeup subtle and natural and set off telling Joe that I had to go to a meeting. I drove to Bath where the funeral was being held, I went to find a seat in the church and they played a night-core slow version of Hallelujah which made me cry straight away. 'We are here today to say goodbye to a special person in all of our life's, Dylan risked his life for his country. He had one request which he told a fellow army companion, his last words were: tell Emily that I loved her till the end, she was my very last thought and I wished things could be different between us. I know that Joe will treat you like you were supposed to be treated. The way that I couldn't' I cried so much at this point but I decided to make a speech.

'Hello everyone, I'm Emily and I wanted to respond to Dylan's words with some of my own I hope you don't mind. Dylan and I never saw eye to eye at the beginning, we were put into an arranged marriage but I ran away from home and moved to London where I ended up being with Joe and marrying him. I do too wish that things were different between me and Dylan but at least I saw the loving and caring side of him towards the end. I loved that Dylan, the caring one. I will always remember Dylan for that caring side. I loved you too Dylan, you were my hero' I cried into the microphone it was true, I loved him as a friend and he was my hero at the end of it all.

The service ended and his mum pulled me into a massive hug, 'thank you Emily your speech was beautiful. Thank you for everything' I hugged her back and then I left after having a glass of wine. I needed to get back to my own family which I loved so much. When I got in Joe saw that I had been crying and in fact still was. He ran over being the loving husband that he was and hugged me tightly, 'what's wrong baby?' he said comforting me.

'I-it's nothing, I-I don't want to talk about it...' I said hugging him tighter and crying into his shoulder, I just needed to be in his arms right now. This was when Joe did something which shocked and made me sad, 'you can't just stand there and cry but not tell me why! What are you after sympathy?!' he shouted harshly. 'J-Joe?' I hesitated scared, I had never seen this side of him in all of the years that I had known him. 'What Em? What do you want me to do because right now I don't have a clue!' he snapped. 'I was at a funeral alright?!' I shouted back.

'Well, who's funeral?' he said a little softer this time. I looked at the floor tears still falling down my face, if I told him then I knew that he would be mad at me but if I didn't then I would be lying and I couldn't do that to him. 'Dylan's' I whispered at this point he backed away from me and didn't look me in the eyes. 'Why...' he said sadly before walking out the door. 'Joe wait!' I shouted after him but he never listened.

I lay on my sofa tears pouring down my face at a rapid pace that was when my world came crashing down. 'Mrs Sugg?' the guy on the phone said to me in a concerned voice.

'Yes? What is it? What's wrong?' I said quickly scared of his next words.

'It's Joe. Joe Sugg. He's been in a really bad car accident' if I wasn't crying much before I knew that I was now. 'What?! Is he okay?!' I shouted down the phone but I got no response. 'Just head to the hospital as soon as you can' the guy replied. I rang up Jim and Tanya and asked them to look after Rose for me and they came over really quickly. I headed straight to the hospital, 'Joe Sugg?' I asked the woman at the reception. 'He's in the Intensive Care Unit. Room 173' she replied and pointed to the way. I ran down the corridors and ran into the room where I saw Joe's fragile body on the bed. I immediately fell to the floor after seeing him lying there my best friend, my soul mate, my world lying there lifeless on the bed looking pale and hurt.

A doctor walked into the room and tried to comfort me, 'is he going to make it?' I asked her crying. 

'We aren't too sure yet but just make the most of the time you have with him now' she replied sadly before walking out again. That didn't sound good at all, I stood up and walked over to him I grabbed his hand and kissed it over and over my tears hitting it as I cried. 'Please don't leave me Joe! Please! I don't know what I'd do without you... I love you so much and I need you' I kept on repeating this over and over but he never responded. A day had passed by followed by another and he still didn't reply.

I went to the hospital again after dropping Rose off at school, she was now three years old. Joe had missed her first day of school and her second and third birthday's. I drove straight from Rose's school to the hospital and walked to his room. 'Hello baby' I said sadly as I looked at his pale face, 'Rose looked beautiful for school today.. Just like her daddy she is like the girl version of you. She keeps on asking where daddy is-' I couldn't continue my sentence and I just broke down before finally continuing my sentence, 'I try to tell her that daddy is in the hospital and that I'm not sure when we will see him again but she doesn't understand' at that moment all of the machines bleeped and he hadn't got a pulse.

Nurses rushed in and I screamed to them, 'please don't let him die!' before being escorted to the waiting room. 'Please don't leave me Joe...' I cried over and over again till a doctor walked out of the room with a sad look on his face. 'Please don't tell me he's...' I cried but they shook their head. 'We managed to get a pulse but these next few days will determine whether he will make it. You can see him now' I walked back in the room to see Joe with the pads on his chest. He looked so peaceful just like he did every morning when I woke up next to him. 'Please don't scare me like that again baby. You really did scare me I thought that I'd lost you for good' I cried kissing his hand.